I'm looking forward to Thursday because we have a day off and I want to take full advantage of being with my boys. & my veteran, of course! ;) This past weekend was pretty uneventful but we kept semi busy & it was a productive weekend for the most part. Friday, I got off work early (2pm!) which are my favorite days of the month lol. I was able to pick up Matti which never happens so those days are special. Vivien was also there so we got to catch up some and I ended up dragging her to our new place so she could see it. For once, I was able to wait for Jason to get home. Eventually, Ashley showed up and we sat around talking eating Ritz crackers with tuna. So simple & yummy. Our initial plan for the weekend was to visit Heavenly Presents which is the new Christian bookstore down here, but that didn't happen. We did end up going to the store to pick up a few things for Matti's room. We are trying to decorate it so he knows it's HIS room and that he loves it. We picked up an alphabet banner, a Lightning McQueen poster, glow in the dark stars, and a Cars road carpet. The room is coming along, but I think we did pretty good for that little trip. Matti loves the moon & stars so the glow in the darks were perfect. He had fun watching Jake put them up. The past few nights, he's been asleep in his bed for a lot longer. I'm hoping it stays that way.
During the week, I declared Saturday as a day to catch up on cleaning & organizing. That was somewhat done. I got to shred & file a bunch of papers. We hung out at home most of the day because I just wanted to chill (hello, a Saturday off!) and get stuff done. We were trying to go the new store, but I got ready too late, and by then, it was time to go to his co-workers' party. Before we left, I felt a headache coming, but I didn't want to take anything just yet. We stayed for a few hours, but after two hours, my headache was present and I was ready to go. Matti was getting tired and starting to act up too, so I was really ready to go. It was good to meet his co workers and it was fun seeing all the kids play. I just need to step out of my shell a little more next time..haha. We came home and I took some Tylenol. I folded up some laundry while we watched State of Play.
I love when we Fall Back! I woke up and layed in bed for a few extra minutes and I was happy to find that it was only 8ish and we had some time to enjoy the morning before getting ready for church. Jason & I attempted to make breakfast--which needs major work! haha. I told him I'd never made bacon before and he didn't believe me. I'm not much of a bacon eater, but it's growing on me ;) I fried up the first two pieces and knew that I was doing it wrong, haha. Then, the eggs. We're both particular with the way our eggs are cooked. I liked them fried with crispy edges. He likes the yolk runny & the while completely cooked. We have yet to master his eggs. & I just didn't want to deal with cooking them that morning so he was in charge. In the end, it was somewhat successful and was still yummy. Matti approved so that's what matters, haha. We got ready for church and we got there on time--we're getting good at that! haha. Matti fell asleep at mass so it was nice being able to give our full attention to Mass. After Mass, we checked out the stores in the classrooms. We saw Christa's posters and made me want to think of stuff to buy from her. We found really cute favors for Ashley's baby shower, but we walked out without spending money. We opted against going to the Fall Dinner...maybe next time. =/ We picked up some Chipotle and headed to the Jason's parents' house to eat. His parents came home and Matti was awake by then and Pop Pop wanted to take Matti to see some horses. So, we all went and yea...horses still scare me. Matti had a good time and so did Jason's dad trying to make one of the horses love him again. Apparently, they were BFFs but for some reason, that horse wasn't too happy with him that day. We left because it was getting chilly and we decided to get Matti some much needed Fall/Winter clothes. We headed to Kohl's and went with a mission to find good deals.We walked out with a BUNCH of clothes for Matti and spent a small amount. We even found some things to hang on our walls. Jen texted me while we were there telling us to come over that night and so after Kohl's we picked up Teddi & headed to Jeanie & Richard's. oh & Mojo's! Mojo is so cute and Teddi is just super curious about him. He started to get on Mojo's nerves I think. We had dinner and sat around watching football. I was ready to watch the Cowboys lose, haha. A little after the game started, we made our long trip back home and watched most of the game there. Terrible. haha. Now, it's Monday and I'm ready for Thursday to come. & then Sunday. All I know is, weekends need to be longer!
11.08.2010
11.01.2010
Matti madness
I really do think about this blog a lot but I just haven't had much time. I like to sit and be able to write out a good amount. I have a little bit of time now while Matti is slowly eating a bowl of noodles while we watch Sesame Street together. In our month old apartment!
Yes, apartment. We changed our mind again and just felt that it was best that we move now rather than in a few months. I know I wrote about finances before, but in the weeks before moving, we calculated everything and saw that it was possible for us. So, we moved out! In a few days, it'll be a month :) We absolutely love it and are so happy with the decision. We all miss my family though, but we see them every week so it's good. Matti has his own room and I have my kitchen lol. We're slowly getting it together and slowly decorating.
Matti has adjusted pretty well. Since we moved, he took himself off his pacifier which is amazing! We struggled with that for a long time, and all it took was for us to move. So that's great, but he's having trouble sleeping in his own room/bed. The first night he slept great and out of exhaustion, we just let him sleep with us for the weeks following. For the past two weeks, we've been trying to get him to sleep in his bed/room. It's a hit and miss each night, and I know he will do it when he is ready. Last night, he slept there half of the night until he woke up and came into our room. Some nights (when we're not too sleepy), we'll move him back to his bed and he will stay there til morning, but last night was not one of those nights. I know we need to be consistent. We're working on it though. We also plan on decorating his room more so that he feels comfortable in it. Right now it's just his name and a Cars traffic light on his walls. We plan on hanging airplanes from the ceilings because he loves them. It's still a work in progress. One night we spent three to four hours trying to get him to sleep. It was a lot of back and forth from our room to his and a lot of crying on his part. Obviously, that method didn't work lol. The very last time I asked him what was wrong he told me he needed to go pee pee. For those that know Matti, know that he has avoided his potty for the past few months. He used to love it, but one day, he just hated it. SO...thinking it was one of his distractions, I sat him on his seat. He read his book like he always did and next thing you know he went! Two o'clock in the morning, dead tired, I was jumping up and down and cheering for him so hard. LOL. I was so excited, but sad to say, he hasn't gone in it again. I think he'll be ready soon though.
Anyway...moving on from Matti, haha. This past month really solidified what a friend and I constantly tell each other when we're having issues. Happiness is what we really should strive for in life. No matter what others may think, no matter what path you take to find that happiness. Not meaning to say that you should make decisions without thinking them through. Definitely think things through and if it's something that you can make happen, MAKE IT HAPPEN. Who cares what others may think? Only the people who truly care will still be by your side in the end. Everyone else, you don't need. No one else in this world has EVER been in your situation with the same circumstances so they can't say, "I've been there."
Yes, apartment. We changed our mind again and just felt that it was best that we move now rather than in a few months. I know I wrote about finances before, but in the weeks before moving, we calculated everything and saw that it was possible for us. So, we moved out! In a few days, it'll be a month :) We absolutely love it and are so happy with the decision. We all miss my family though, but we see them every week so it's good. Matti has his own room and I have my kitchen lol. We're slowly getting it together and slowly decorating.
Matti has adjusted pretty well. Since we moved, he took himself off his pacifier which is amazing! We struggled with that for a long time, and all it took was for us to move. So that's great, but he's having trouble sleeping in his own room/bed. The first night he slept great and out of exhaustion, we just let him sleep with us for the weeks following. For the past two weeks, we've been trying to get him to sleep in his bed/room. It's a hit and miss each night, and I know he will do it when he is ready. Last night, he slept there half of the night until he woke up and came into our room. Some nights (when we're not too sleepy), we'll move him back to his bed and he will stay there til morning, but last night was not one of those nights. I know we need to be consistent. We're working on it though. We also plan on decorating his room more so that he feels comfortable in it. Right now it's just his name and a Cars traffic light on his walls. We plan on hanging airplanes from the ceilings because he loves them. It's still a work in progress. One night we spent three to four hours trying to get him to sleep. It was a lot of back and forth from our room to his and a lot of crying on his part. Obviously, that method didn't work lol. The very last time I asked him what was wrong he told me he needed to go pee pee. For those that know Matti, know that he has avoided his potty for the past few months. He used to love it, but one day, he just hated it. SO...thinking it was one of his distractions, I sat him on his seat. He read his book like he always did and next thing you know he went! Two o'clock in the morning, dead tired, I was jumping up and down and cheering for him so hard. LOL. I was so excited, but sad to say, he hasn't gone in it again. I think he'll be ready soon though.
Anyway...moving on from Matti, haha. This past month really solidified what a friend and I constantly tell each other when we're having issues. Happiness is what we really should strive for in life. No matter what others may think, no matter what path you take to find that happiness. Not meaning to say that you should make decisions without thinking them through. Definitely think things through and if it's something that you can make happen, MAKE IT HAPPEN. Who cares what others may think? Only the people who truly care will still be by your side in the end. Everyone else, you don't need. No one else in this world has EVER been in your situation with the same circumstances so they can't say, "I've been there."
9.14.2010
catching up.
Dude. I'm awful at this.
We've been kind of busy the past few months and just trying to enjoy the little bit of summer we have left. So much going on! I was going to blog sooner, but I knew I would end up writing about something that wasn't set in stone yet. We were thinking about moving out earlier this month. We went to look at houses & apartments and we were SO CLOSE to moving. In the end, we decided to stick it out a little longer here at my parents' house. We're on super saving mode & we have a "moving date" of March. There's really no reason why we picked March--if it were up to me, I'd choose February lol. So yea, we're saving money like it's nobody's business since we had to use some of our savings *sigh* when Jason was unemployed. I'm just really excited knowing that we'll be moving soon. So that's the big thing that I didn't want to start writing about.
Work has been going well. It was really quiet for a few weeks until last week when it got really busy. I'd rather have it that way though. We also found out a few weeks ago that our bank was bought out by another Maryland based bank so that's the new news at work. Everyone has so many questions and frankly, we don't have answers to them. We'll find out on Thursday though when we have a meeting with the other bank. I just hope to have a job and maybe higher pay, but I'm not complaining if it doesn't change. It's better than nothing! For the most part, I'm back to my 1-6pm schedule which is great for mommy&Matti time. Since I get home late, my wonderful husband has been cooking for most nights. He's amazing. I could very well do it, but he's been a sweetheart about that. & he's a good cook! Last night, he made sinigang which is my FAVORITE. This also makes me wish that I had "normal" work hours so I can do those things for him. It stinks I come home, eat dinner and by the time all that's done, we've got maybe two hours to just be together. That's why I look forward to weekends so much because I just want to be with my boys. & I just got done working two weekends so I'm excited for this one because I'm off!
Jason's doing great. I haven't heard complaints about his job at all which is good news lol. He's passed his 90-day mark with them, and pretty soon I believe he is going to try and move up to a mech. So, I'm excited for him. For the past weekend (week?) we've been going to stores buying all the tools he needs for work. Which is a lot of money! But, I'm happy he has them, because every man needs a good set of tools! =) He's been so good to me...did I mention that he also bought me this netbook that I'm typing on? Yes, yes he did! lol. Also, he HAD to get me 'top of the line' tires because we have to be safe & have the best. Little things like that make me smile.
Matti is well into his "Terrible Twos" and it keeps every day interesting. Honestly, he's not too bad. He has his moments, but as long as we catch whatever it is that's going to make him upset before it happens, we can avoid it. He's been SUCH a sweetheart though. I'm glad he still likes to cuddle with me or Jake. That he'll wake me up in the morning with, "Mommy?" ....."MORNIN!" with the cheesiest smile a kid could have. He'll go up to you and tell you he loves you. His 'thing' right now is calling out your name & when you answer, he'll say, "Dooen?" That's him asking you what you're doing. & he'll ask you again in 5 minutes or less guaranteed. He's learning so much everyday. He can count all the way up to ten, sings his ABCs (he doesn't know all the letter just yet, but he knows some), knows animals & the sounds they make, says please & thank you, can tell you (nicely) what he wants & if he doesn't want something, knows his body parts, can recite lines from the movie Cars, sings Twinkle, Twinkle (it's his lullaby), and so many more. He's constantly moving and has tons & tons of energy--and it's addicting! He was put on soy milk a month ago because he showed signs of peanut & milk allergy. That just reminded me I need to make hi follow up soon. I'm not entirely sure if he gained weight, but his legs look a lot better! & he enjoys soy milk. The potty training was held back again because he's still refusing to let us put him on it. I don't know what happened, but we're not going to push him. We're going to try again around December. He loves to flush though! lol. One day I heard him saying something like, "eeet amen..eeet amen." So I found him in the bathroom making the sign of the cross trying to say, "In the name of the Father, Son, Holy SpIRIT, AMEN!" All the while dipping his hand into the toilet as if it were Holy Water. He got washed up quick, but I'm happy to know he's learning =) He knows who Jesus is and actually kisses all the crosses/crucifixes that he can reach.
I've got to end it here because I still need to do some things before I get myself & Matti ready for the day. Until next time =)
We've been kind of busy the past few months and just trying to enjoy the little bit of summer we have left. So much going on! I was going to blog sooner, but I knew I would end up writing about something that wasn't set in stone yet. We were thinking about moving out earlier this month. We went to look at houses & apartments and we were SO CLOSE to moving. In the end, we decided to stick it out a little longer here at my parents' house. We're on super saving mode & we have a "moving date" of March. There's really no reason why we picked March--if it were up to me, I'd choose February lol. So yea, we're saving money like it's nobody's business since we had to use some of our savings *sigh* when Jason was unemployed. I'm just really excited knowing that we'll be moving soon. So that's the big thing that I didn't want to start writing about.
Work has been going well. It was really quiet for a few weeks until last week when it got really busy. I'd rather have it that way though. We also found out a few weeks ago that our bank was bought out by another Maryland based bank so that's the new news at work. Everyone has so many questions and frankly, we don't have answers to them. We'll find out on Thursday though when we have a meeting with the other bank. I just hope to have a job and maybe higher pay, but I'm not complaining if it doesn't change. It's better than nothing! For the most part, I'm back to my 1-6pm schedule which is great for mommy&Matti time. Since I get home late, my wonderful husband has been cooking for most nights. He's amazing. I could very well do it, but he's been a sweetheart about that. & he's a good cook! Last night, he made sinigang which is my FAVORITE. This also makes me wish that I had "normal" work hours so I can do those things for him. It stinks I come home, eat dinner and by the time all that's done, we've got maybe two hours to just be together. That's why I look forward to weekends so much because I just want to be with my boys. & I just got done working two weekends so I'm excited for this one because I'm off!
Jason's doing great. I haven't heard complaints about his job at all which is good news lol. He's passed his 90-day mark with them, and pretty soon I believe he is going to try and move up to a mech. So, I'm excited for him. For the past weekend (week?) we've been going to stores buying all the tools he needs for work. Which is a lot of money! But, I'm happy he has them, because every man needs a good set of tools! =) He's been so good to me...did I mention that he also bought me this netbook that I'm typing on? Yes, yes he did! lol. Also, he HAD to get me 'top of the line' tires because we have to be safe & have the best. Little things like that make me smile.
Matti is well into his "Terrible Twos" and it keeps every day interesting. Honestly, he's not too bad. He has his moments, but as long as we catch whatever it is that's going to make him upset before it happens, we can avoid it. He's been SUCH a sweetheart though. I'm glad he still likes to cuddle with me or Jake. That he'll wake me up in the morning with, "Mommy?" ....."MORNIN!" with the cheesiest smile a kid could have. He'll go up to you and tell you he loves you. His 'thing' right now is calling out your name & when you answer, he'll say, "Dooen?" That's him asking you what you're doing. & he'll ask you again in 5 minutes or less guaranteed. He's learning so much everyday. He can count all the way up to ten, sings his ABCs (he doesn't know all the letter just yet, but he knows some), knows animals & the sounds they make, says please & thank you, can tell you (nicely) what he wants & if he doesn't want something, knows his body parts, can recite lines from the movie Cars, sings Twinkle, Twinkle (it's his lullaby), and so many more. He's constantly moving and has tons & tons of energy--and it's addicting! He was put on soy milk a month ago because he showed signs of peanut & milk allergy. That just reminded me I need to make hi follow up soon. I'm not entirely sure if he gained weight, but his legs look a lot better! & he enjoys soy milk. The potty training was held back again because he's still refusing to let us put him on it. I don't know what happened, but we're not going to push him. We're going to try again around December. He loves to flush though! lol. One day I heard him saying something like, "eeet amen..eeet amen." So I found him in the bathroom making the sign of the cross trying to say, "In the name of the Father, Son, Holy SpIRIT, AMEN!" All the while dipping his hand into the toilet as if it were Holy Water. He got washed up quick, but I'm happy to know he's learning =) He knows who Jesus is and actually kisses all the crosses/crucifixes that he can reach.
I've got to end it here because I still need to do some things before I get myself & Matti ready for the day. Until next time =)
7.25.2010
:)
I have been slacking on my updates. Sorry, but I'm here now :) A lot has been going on the past few months, but at the same time, not much has been going on. Make sense? I've also been thinking a lot and just evaluating life. Truly blessed is the conclusion I came to. I may not show it all the time & I may not realize that all the time, but it's what I am. Sure, things are always perfect and things don't always go my way. 99% of the time, they don't and I'm okay with that. I have good friends. Friends that I don't see much, but they are really the best. Yesterday, we were with a friend who was leaving for a good year or so. We decided to watch a movie and have dessert at the house. Somehow, we ended up in the prayer room because he was wondering about the decals on Jason's car. Then, he says, "Let's pray the rosary." Jason, my brother & myself kinda looked at each other and were like...'okayy...' But we did. & after much distractions from Matti, we finished & it felt like it was the right thing to do. Happy Birthday & we'll miss you!
I'll do the usual updates in paragraph form.
Myself.
Seems like everyone's questions is: How's your job going? or Do you like your job? Answer is yes. I'm getting the hang of things and I've been there for almost three months now. I'm getting to know the customers. I still get confused about about different paperwork that needs to be done with certain transactions, but for the most part I think I'm doing okay. I think my weakest point is making change out for businesses. I was over $5 in dimes (a roll of dimes) because I'm pretty sure I forgot to give a roll to one of the businesses. UGH! I don't have much to complain about, I do what I need to do & try to do my best. I'm Switzerland! If you know what I mean ;) There are days when I really wish I was at home with Matti at this crucial time when he is such a sponge. I want to teach him his alphabet, numbers, the different shapes & colors...I want to be there for him, but I know me working is the best thing for us right now. Job is great. My longing right now is getting our own place. I want to move out so bad because I feel my role as a mother isn't complete without our own place. I want my own place to clean, my own kitchen to cook our meals in, our own space...just something that is ours. I want that so bad...I feel so old saying that because I want our home! Haha. So, that's my battle & not to mention everyone's second question being, "When's the next one coming?" In God's time. We need our own place first. But OMG, Matti is two and the gap in ages is just getting too big! In God's time.
Jason.
Jason started his job on base in June just like I previously stated. Another question people ask me: Does Jason like his job? My answer: Go ask him yourself. Just kidding. Yes, he likes his job. Way better than Kohl's! I haven't heard a complaint from him about his job so that is a good thing. Trust me on that. I think he's glad to be back working on 'birds' and trying to do his best at his job. There was a pot luck for his work the other day & he made pancit by himself. (I've never made that, haha) & it was yummayy! His longing for our own place isn't as bad as mine, but he's a lot more patient than I am. He's been really amazing with helping me with laundry & doing a lot of things around here because I really am awful at keeping up with chores. Another reason why I feel we need our own place, I would be more motivated to do things, haha. His longing? Baby number 2.
Matti.
This little stink butt turned two last month. His party was fun and we made a train cake that we worked so hard on. Pics on Facebook ;) He is definitely in his "terrible twos" but I know it's something every child goes through, and not something he is doing on purpose. He's growing up so fast and learning at such a fast pace. He's a rebel and still so independent. He loves cars, trucks, school buses, airplanes, trains, and all that good boy stuff, but he will put a baby doll in a toy stroller and push it around. When the time comes, he will be an amazing big brother. For now, he can just be the best big cousin :) He has two younger ones ;) One of my favorite things that he does is sing the "Clean Up" song while putting his toys away. My second favorite is when he makes up his own stories while playing with his beloved truck & cars. So cute. My baby is no longer a baby and that makes me sad. In my mind, he will always be my baby. & he knows this. I love when he's tired or in the mornings, he will come lay with me and he will hold my hand. He knows in the mornings Mommy needs her glasses and he will get them for me so I can wake up. & then he hands me my "Amen" book so I can say my morning prayers. He may not know his letters or number or colors that well, but he is so so smart. I love that little boy & he will never understand just how much I do. His longing? His pacifier. UGH.
Teddi.
I never usually have something for him and I really should. He is baby boyyyy of course! He is 4 years old today. Happy Birthday! He isn't as spoiled as he used to be and he doesn't get as much lovin as he used to get and I feel so bad. He is Matti's dog-BFF though. He is still the barky little dog that he is who thinks every single person is a bad guy. Matti likes to feed him food so I think that's why they're BFFs...they have a little agreement.
Us.
Overall, we're doing great. Can't complain too much. Our house is on the market so hopefully it will get some people interested in it. That's our main concern right now. To get the house sold, but it's such a bittersweet moment for me. I love that house and the memories in it. It's our first house and we worked hard on it, but we really have to let go of it. 38BSt, you hold my heart always. It's been majorly hot here so we're not doing much. Jason's always really good about getting out of the house, but it's just soo hot. Our longing? To be better people.
I'll do the usual updates in paragraph form.
Myself.
Seems like everyone's questions is: How's your job going? or Do you like your job? Answer is yes. I'm getting the hang of things and I've been there for almost three months now. I'm getting to know the customers. I still get confused about about different paperwork that needs to be done with certain transactions, but for the most part I think I'm doing okay. I think my weakest point is making change out for businesses. I was over $5 in dimes (a roll of dimes) because I'm pretty sure I forgot to give a roll to one of the businesses. UGH! I don't have much to complain about, I do what I need to do & try to do my best. I'm Switzerland! If you know what I mean ;) There are days when I really wish I was at home with Matti at this crucial time when he is such a sponge. I want to teach him his alphabet, numbers, the different shapes & colors...I want to be there for him, but I know me working is the best thing for us right now. Job is great. My longing right now is getting our own place. I want to move out so bad because I feel my role as a mother isn't complete without our own place. I want my own place to clean, my own kitchen to cook our meals in, our own space...just something that is ours. I want that so bad...I feel so old saying that because I want our home! Haha. So, that's my battle & not to mention everyone's second question being, "When's the next one coming?" In God's time. We need our own place first. But OMG, Matti is two and the gap in ages is just getting too big! In God's time.
Jason.
Jason started his job on base in June just like I previously stated. Another question people ask me: Does Jason like his job? My answer: Go ask him yourself. Just kidding. Yes, he likes his job. Way better than Kohl's! I haven't heard a complaint from him about his job so that is a good thing. Trust me on that. I think he's glad to be back working on 'birds' and trying to do his best at his job. There was a pot luck for his work the other day & he made pancit by himself. (I've never made that, haha) & it was yummayy! His longing for our own place isn't as bad as mine, but he's a lot more patient than I am. He's been really amazing with helping me with laundry & doing a lot of things around here because I really am awful at keeping up with chores. Another reason why I feel we need our own place, I would be more motivated to do things, haha. His longing? Baby number 2.
Matti.
This little stink butt turned two last month. His party was fun and we made a train cake that we worked so hard on. Pics on Facebook ;) He is definitely in his "terrible twos" but I know it's something every child goes through, and not something he is doing on purpose. He's growing up so fast and learning at such a fast pace. He's a rebel and still so independent. He loves cars, trucks, school buses, airplanes, trains, and all that good boy stuff, but he will put a baby doll in a toy stroller and push it around. When the time comes, he will be an amazing big brother. For now, he can just be the best big cousin :) He has two younger ones ;) One of my favorite things that he does is sing the "Clean Up" song while putting his toys away. My second favorite is when he makes up his own stories while playing with his beloved truck & cars. So cute. My baby is no longer a baby and that makes me sad. In my mind, he will always be my baby. & he knows this. I love when he's tired or in the mornings, he will come lay with me and he will hold my hand. He knows in the mornings Mommy needs her glasses and he will get them for me so I can wake up. & then he hands me my "Amen" book so I can say my morning prayers. He may not know his letters or number or colors that well, but he is so so smart. I love that little boy & he will never understand just how much I do. His longing? His pacifier. UGH.
Teddi.
I never usually have something for him and I really should. He is baby boyyyy of course! He is 4 years old today. Happy Birthday! He isn't as spoiled as he used to be and he doesn't get as much lovin as he used to get and I feel so bad. He is Matti's dog-BFF though. He is still the barky little dog that he is who thinks every single person is a bad guy. Matti likes to feed him food so I think that's why they're BFFs...they have a little agreement.
Us.
Overall, we're doing great. Can't complain too much. Our house is on the market so hopefully it will get some people interested in it. That's our main concern right now. To get the house sold, but it's such a bittersweet moment for me. I love that house and the memories in it. It's our first house and we worked hard on it, but we really have to let go of it. 38BSt, you hold my heart always. It's been majorly hot here so we're not doing much. Jason's always really good about getting out of the house, but it's just soo hot. Our longing? To be better people.
5.18.2010
changes!
So much has been going on lately that I don't know how short I can make this, but I'll try my best. Let's start with me.
I've been loosely looking for a job & sending my resume to places when I see something I'm interested in. Mostly receptionist & bank teller jobs. I kinda gave up on the bank jobs though since I had the last bank bail on me. I was scheduled for a phone interview & it never happened--as many times I tried calling back. I figured that it wasn't in the plan for me. Three Thursdays ago, I sent in my resume to a bank for a teller job right next to my house. Again, wasn't expecting much at all.The following day, the HR called me to schedule my interview for Monday. I was terrified of my interview because it has been five years since my last one. It went well & I left with a good feeling. The following day, Tuesday, I was offered the job which I of course accepted. That Wednesday & Friday, I had my orientation in Waldorf. Last Monday, I started at my branch & I have been there for the past week. & I really like it. The ladies are all so nice & sweet & the customers are great. I never realized that a bank could be such a family. There's always something going on & we get some interesting people coming through like the man with a deer head in his passenger seat, haha. Definitely loving the new job & I miss Matti terribly while we're not together, but I know he's in good hands. God is truly great.
Onto Jason. He is still working at Kohl's for the time being. For the past six months, he's waited patiently for a job on base. His name is all over that company's HR office it's not even funny--he's had so many people take his application & resume to hand off to their bosses & to the HR reps. It was funny...when I got the job, Jason told me I couldn't quit because I was making more money that him, haha. Well, finally, it was Jason's time. He turned in his application & resume last week & not even a day later, he got a job offer. In the field that he wants to go into. Of course, he accepted & he starts in the beginning of June. I am so happy for him & he's even more excited to know that he won't be at Kohl's much longer. Nothing against the company, but Jason, prior military at a retail store? It's far from where he wants to be, and he's so ready to work on planes again. God is good.
Baby boyy Matti. He went into daycare the first day I started at my branch. I take him in the morning & he stays until noon & Jason picks him up. He loves it. He hates when I leave, but they said he recovers quickly. He seems so much happier & I love getting pictures of him playing with other kids. He needs that & it makes me happy. He's turning two in a month & he's absolutely perfect.
The Roof family has definitely gotten quite a lot of surprises in the past week, but they're all blessings. All this just solidifies that God does have a plan for us & that it will happen when it is supposed to. Our patience was tested & it still is to this day, but it all works out in the end.
I've been loosely looking for a job & sending my resume to places when I see something I'm interested in. Mostly receptionist & bank teller jobs. I kinda gave up on the bank jobs though since I had the last bank bail on me. I was scheduled for a phone interview & it never happened--as many times I tried calling back. I figured that it wasn't in the plan for me. Three Thursdays ago, I sent in my resume to a bank for a teller job right next to my house. Again, wasn't expecting much at all.The following day, the HR called me to schedule my interview for Monday. I was terrified of my interview because it has been five years since my last one. It went well & I left with a good feeling. The following day, Tuesday, I was offered the job which I of course accepted. That Wednesday & Friday, I had my orientation in Waldorf. Last Monday, I started at my branch & I have been there for the past week. & I really like it. The ladies are all so nice & sweet & the customers are great. I never realized that a bank could be such a family. There's always something going on & we get some interesting people coming through like the man with a deer head in his passenger seat, haha. Definitely loving the new job & I miss Matti terribly while we're not together, but I know he's in good hands. God is truly great.
Onto Jason. He is still working at Kohl's for the time being. For the past six months, he's waited patiently for a job on base. His name is all over that company's HR office it's not even funny--he's had so many people take his application & resume to hand off to their bosses & to the HR reps. It was funny...when I got the job, Jason told me I couldn't quit because I was making more money that him, haha. Well, finally, it was Jason's time. He turned in his application & resume last week & not even a day later, he got a job offer. In the field that he wants to go into. Of course, he accepted & he starts in the beginning of June. I am so happy for him & he's even more excited to know that he won't be at Kohl's much longer. Nothing against the company, but Jason, prior military at a retail store? It's far from where he wants to be, and he's so ready to work on planes again. God is good.
Baby boyy Matti. He went into daycare the first day I started at my branch. I take him in the morning & he stays until noon & Jason picks him up. He loves it. He hates when I leave, but they said he recovers quickly. He seems so much happier & I love getting pictures of him playing with other kids. He needs that & it makes me happy. He's turning two in a month & he's absolutely perfect.
The Roof family has definitely gotten quite a lot of surprises in the past week, but they're all blessings. All this just solidifies that God does have a plan for us & that it will happen when it is supposed to. Our patience was tested & it still is to this day, but it all works out in the end.
4.30.2010
Anxiety and then peace
Lately, I just feel like there's so much I want to write about, but once I click "New Post," everything disappears. Not much has changed since my last post and I am still happy. Happy with what I have and although there are many things I wish I/we had, I'm still just happy.
Matti had an appointment yesterday. Since I found out that Jason had to work & I would have to go alone, I was in panic mode. I made it through, haha. Ever since I had Matti, I've become anxious about having to go out alone with him. I got over it when Jason was deployed. When Jason came back, I didn't have to worry about it anymore because he was always with us. Yesterday was the first day we went out alone. Somehow my mind blocked all the anxiety out & we made it through the appointment. It wasn't as bad as before...seriously considering canceling the appointment and putting it off...so it was okay. I think a lot of this is because 1. I don't want him to get hurt and 2. I don't want him to act out. Mostly the second one though. I hear stories from mothers who encounter people who are really against children being in public places. When they think that children cannot make a single noise while in public. Matti is not a "bad kid" but he is a kid & his mind is constantly ticking, but his body isn't able to keep up with it. When that happens, he will get upset. I just don't want people to look at me (their first thought probably is that I'm a teenager who had a child out of wedlock) & think that I can't control my child. He really is a good kid and it makes me sad when people think otherwise. Anyway, Matti's eczema 'passed' since it's under control. He gained a pound which is really good news because he's on the small side according to the charts. We'll be back in two months for his 24 month appointment. Hopefully, he'll have more weight gain by then.
Yesterday was a nice & slightly windy day. So, we took out our kite & attempted to fly it. We got it to fly a few times, and for me, it was relaxing. It made me realize how I'm truly okay & happy with our life. We may not have all these nice things, but we have what we need. We have each other. We live a simple life and we live it following Him. We don't need to live up to anyone's expectations, because in the end, it doesn't matter. The only one whose expectations we need to live up to and who it matters to is Him. And that's who we live for.
Lord,
Help me become a better person for my family, my friends, and to those that I don't know. When words affect me more than it should, help me remember that it doesn't matter. Help me remember to live my life according to Your will. Hold my tongue when it wants to lash out. Calm me when my temper is at its worst. Guide me so that I can be an example to those that see me. Use me, Lord, to lead others closer to you. Even if it's just one person. That's one more person. Thank you for everything that I have and all that you have blessed me with. I know that you have a plan for me and for us. Grant me patience for I know that it will come on Your time.... because a lot of times, I forget. For the times when I can't seem to wait, give me patience. For the times I worry and have anxiety, help me remember that it will be okay.
Matti had an appointment yesterday. Since I found out that Jason had to work & I would have to go alone, I was in panic mode. I made it through, haha. Ever since I had Matti, I've become anxious about having to go out alone with him. I got over it when Jason was deployed. When Jason came back, I didn't have to worry about it anymore because he was always with us. Yesterday was the first day we went out alone. Somehow my mind blocked all the anxiety out & we made it through the appointment. It wasn't as bad as before...seriously considering canceling the appointment and putting it off...so it was okay. I think a lot of this is because 1. I don't want him to get hurt and 2. I don't want him to act out. Mostly the second one though. I hear stories from mothers who encounter people who are really against children being in public places. When they think that children cannot make a single noise while in public. Matti is not a "bad kid" but he is a kid & his mind is constantly ticking, but his body isn't able to keep up with it. When that happens, he will get upset. I just don't want people to look at me (their first thought probably is that I'm a teenager who had a child out of wedlock) & think that I can't control my child. He really is a good kid and it makes me sad when people think otherwise. Anyway, Matti's eczema 'passed' since it's under control. He gained a pound which is really good news because he's on the small side according to the charts. We'll be back in two months for his 24 month appointment. Hopefully, he'll have more weight gain by then.
Yesterday was a nice & slightly windy day. So, we took out our kite & attempted to fly it. We got it to fly a few times, and for me, it was relaxing. It made me realize how I'm truly okay & happy with our life. We may not have all these nice things, but we have what we need. We have each other. We live a simple life and we live it following Him. We don't need to live up to anyone's expectations, because in the end, it doesn't matter. The only one whose expectations we need to live up to and who it matters to is Him. And that's who we live for.
Lord,
Help me become a better person for my family, my friends, and to those that I don't know. When words affect me more than it should, help me remember that it doesn't matter. Help me remember to live my life according to Your will. Hold my tongue when it wants to lash out. Calm me when my temper is at its worst. Guide me so that I can be an example to those that see me. Use me, Lord, to lead others closer to you. Even if it's just one person. That's one more person. Thank you for everything that I have and all that you have blessed me with. I know that you have a plan for me and for us. Grant me patience for I know that it will come on Your time.... because a lot of times, I forget. For the times when I can't seem to wait, give me patience. For the times I worry and have anxiety, help me remember that it will be okay.
4.15.2010
Babba
I'm doing a lot better than a few days ago. I've come to the realization (and really believe it) that I don't need to live up to the expectations of other people other than myself. As long as I'm happy with what I am doing...and to be honest, I am happy. My husband is home and we're not limited in the days that we see each other. We don't have to wonder, "How long until we have to be apart again?" It's no longer in the back of our minds. Now it's, "What can we do today to show our son this amazing world that we live in?" That makes me happy. I'm happy I have good friends. Life brings us all in different paths, but whenever we do see each other, everything is fine. I'm thankful for my friends and even more to those that chose to stick with me after all these years ;) I'm happy because Matti is growing up to be such a smart little man. As each day passes, I think to myself, "This is my favorite age." I've loved the past 22 months (plus the 9 months he was in my belly) he's been in our lives & I can't wait to see what's ahead. He's grown up so much. I've been told that he talks a lot for his age & I really don't know if that's true, but hearing that makes me happy. Everyday is something new to him and everyday I learn a little more about life because of him. He completes us & he has a total hold of my heart. I'm thankful to have this time with him to watch him grow & I find myself just sitting back to see what he's going to do next. That's when I think to myself, "I am happy."
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