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I have been slacking on my updates. Sorry, but I'm here now :) A lot has been going on the past few months, but at the same time, not much has been going on. Make sense? I've also been thinking a lot and just evaluating life. Truly blessed is the conclusion I came to. I may not show it all the time & I may not realize that all the time, but it's what I am. Sure, things are always perfect and things don't always go my way. 99% of the time, they don't and I'm okay with that. I have good friends. Friends that I don't see much, but they are really the best. Yesterday, we were with a friend who was leaving for a good year or so. We decided to watch a movie and have dessert at the house. Somehow, we ended up in the prayer room because he was wondering about the decals on Jason's car. Then, he says, "Let's pray the rosary." Jason, my brother & myself kinda looked at each other and were like...'okayy...' But we did. & after much distractions from Matti, we finished & it felt like it was the right thing to do. Happy Birthday & we'll miss you!

I'll do the usual updates in paragraph form.

Myself.
Seems like everyone's questions is: How's your job going? or Do you like your job? Answer is yes. I'm getting the hang of things and I've been there for almost three months now. I'm getting to know the customers. I still get confused about about different paperwork that needs to be done with certain transactions, but for the most part I think I'm doing okay. I think my weakest point is making change out for businesses. I was over $5 in dimes (a roll of dimes) because I'm pretty sure I forgot to give a roll to one of the businesses. UGH! I don't have much to complain about, I do what I need to do & try to do my best. I'm Switzerland! If you know what I mean ;) There are days when I really wish I was at home with Matti at this crucial time when he is such a sponge. I want to teach him his alphabet, numbers, the different shapes & colors...I want to be there for him, but I know me working is the best thing for us right now. Job is great. My longing right now is getting our own place. I want to move out so bad because I feel my role as a mother isn't complete without our own place. I want my own place to clean, my own kitchen to cook our meals in, our own space...just something that is ours. I want that so bad...I feel so old saying that because I want our home! Haha. So, that's my battle & not to mention everyone's second question being, "When's the next one coming?" In God's time. We need our own place first. But OMG, Matti is two and the gap in ages is just getting too big! In God's time.

Jason.
Jason started his job on base in June just like I previously stated. Another question people ask me: Does Jason like his job? My answer: Go ask him yourself. Just kidding. Yes, he likes his job. Way better than Kohl's! I haven't heard a complaint from him about his job so that is a good thing. Trust me on that. I think he's glad to be back working on 'birds' and trying to do his best at his job. There was a pot luck for his work the other day & he made pancit by himself. (I've never made that, haha) & it was yummayy! His longing for our own place isn't as bad as mine, but he's a lot more patient than I am. He's been really amazing with helping me with laundry & doing a lot of things around here because I really am awful at keeping up with chores. Another reason why I feel we need our own place, I would be more motivated to do things, haha. His longing? Baby number 2.

Matti.
This little stink butt turned two last month. His party was fun and we made a train cake that we worked so hard on. Pics on Facebook ;) He is definitely in his "terrible twos" but I know it's something every child goes through, and not something he is doing on purpose. He's growing up so fast and learning at such a fast pace. He's a rebel and still so independent. He loves cars, trucks, school buses, airplanes, trains, and all that good boy stuff, but he will put a baby doll in a toy stroller and push it around. When the time comes, he will be an amazing big brother. For now, he can just be the best big cousin :) He has two younger ones ;) One of my favorite things that he does is sing the "Clean Up" song while putting his toys away. My second favorite is when he makes up his own stories while playing with his beloved truck & cars. So cute. My baby is no longer a baby and that makes me sad. In my mind, he will always be my baby. & he knows this. I love when he's tired or in the mornings, he will come lay with me and he will hold my hand. He knows in the mornings Mommy needs her glasses and he will get them for me so I can wake up. & then he hands me my "Amen" book so I can say my morning prayers. He may not know his letters or number or colors that well, but he is so so smart. I love that little boy & he will never understand just how much I do. His longing? His pacifier. UGH.

Teddi.
I never usually have something for him and I really should. He is baby boyyyy of course! He is 4 years old today. Happy Birthday! He isn't as spoiled as he used to be and he doesn't get as much lovin as he used to get and I feel so bad. He is Matti's dog-BFF though. He is still the barky little dog that he is who thinks every single person is a bad guy. Matti likes to feed him food so I think that's why they're BFFs...they have a little agreement.

Us.
Overall, we're doing great. Can't complain too much. Our house is on the market so hopefully it will get some people interested in it. That's our main concern right now. To get the house sold, but it's such a bittersweet moment for me. I love that house and the memories in it. It's our first house and we worked hard on it, but we really have to let go of it. 38BSt, you hold my heart always. It's been majorly hot here so we're not doing much. Jason's always really good about getting out of the house, but it's just soo hot. Our longing? To be better people.