Josiah is now 4 months old. He does so much already that I'm so happy. Happy because he is considered a preemie and most times, they do things later than full term babies. Some of these things he's been doing for the past month or two, but I don't have that written anywhere.
His favorite thing to do is talk! Matti talks so much and I think it's rubbed off on Josiah. It's the cutest thing. He lights up when he sees his older brother and is all smiles and giggles when it comes to him. If you put your hand over his mouth, he will say, "ahh" and wait for you to move your hand to make a noise. I noticed that if you sing "Close, Open" to him, he will try to close & open his hand. He likes to mimic people and is just so eager to try things. He likes to stand and he will do so with outstretched arm. Think of the Jesus statue in Rio, haha. He grabs for everything. Toys, hair, hands, ceiling fans, etc. Whatever he sees, he'll reach for it. Last month, he rolled over from front to back! He usually does it right after he wakes up. If I try to do it during the day, he doesn't really do it. When he's on his back, he can get to his side, but he can't go to his belly just yet. He always wants to sit up. So he's been hanging out in his Bumbo seat or in the Boppy with a blanket around him. He pulls his head up when he's reclining because he just wants to sit. He's so observant and will track something in the room or focus on one thing to see what it does. This boy is sooo strong & he's so smart.
We started supplementing, but I'm not ready to talk about it just yet. I'm still very upset about it and hopefully one day I'll be able to write something out without being so nasty about it. I tried and I'm just very bitter.
Things are getting better. Short naps can be taken in his bouncer. He'll entertain himself for about 20 minutes before wanting to be picked up. I am able to put him down when I need to. Slowly but surely, it's getting better.
Today, he fell asleep on my lap. I just kept him there because he was just too cute to put down. I started doing things on the computer and I looked down at one point to find him wide awake looking at me. Big brown eyes looking right at me & once I saw him, he flashed a big smile. I love it.
12.14.2011
11.10.2011
family first
I haven't really gone online to do much of anything in the past week or so. I had to deal with things and had to decide if I wanted to keep putting my life out there. Right now I stand at, "Take it or leave it. This is our life."
I've also been trying to figure out something to make my days easier since Josiah is a much much different baby than Matti was. Not to compare or anything. Matti was a very easy baby and Josiah is not easy, but challenging. I thought it'd be a breeze a second time around, but boy was I wrong. So with him being 3 months, I really wanted to figure out how to "function" as a mom to both boys and help more in the house. It's been so unbelievably hard. Josiah is just a challenging/high needs baby. Which is NOT a bad thing. I was really about to go insane before I read about it and now I'm doing better knowing I'm not doing anything wrong.
I wondered if he was acting this way because he is all breastfed and if something is wrong with me or what we're doing. I'll just rundown a list of the things.
1. He refuses to be put down. There are times when we can get away with it. Usually about 10 minutes or less. You can get more out of it if you are in his face talking to him. Not that I want to be away from my baby. I just need time to myself to take care of Matti who is potty training. & he has other needs. I need to do laundry. Our room hasn't been picked up because I'll get to it eventually. So what. I also have my needs too. We put him in a swing. On his play mat. A papa san. Car seat. Propped up to a seating position. He will not have it. & yes, you can tell me to let him cry a little. I'm not the type to come running at my baby at the first peep that he makes. I give him time to calm down, but THERE IS NO CALMING DOWN. It gets progressively louder and louder. So we hold him. I hold him. A lot. Am I spoiling him? No. There's no way to spoil a baby before a year old. He's only 3 months old. He was held constantly in my belly. Babies long for what was familiar. There's a reason he is crying and I give him his time and it doesn't work. When Josiah wants something, he wants it right there & then. He's not manipulative (he's ONLY 3 months old. He is still learning a lot. He's just started to laugh? Manipulative? No. I don't like when babies are called these things because they are so innocent! Another piece of advice. Get a carrier. Got one & I love it. Josiah loves it too.....on certain days. For the past few days, he's HATED it. Those days are tough. Today, he's sleeping very content in it. That's why I'm able to write all this out. I can hope & pray that this is a Moby day.
2. Very unpredictable. He's either super happy or he's just not having it. I call it "not in the mood." Most times he'll start out happy at some degree. It can go either way after about 5 minutes. It doesn't mean that I tiptoe with him. It just means that I can't run on a schedule no matter what. Which makes set times (church, dinner dates, etc) a little difficult. We're learning to manage. People have asked me how we're doing. & ironically, I've been saying, "we're adjusting/figuring it out." I thought it was just having two kids. In reality, I just have two different babies. Josiah does make the days interesting since we never know what's going to happen. Also, like I mentioned before, some days he loves one thing (Moby) and the next, he wants nothing to do with it. He used to love being swaddled, but that worked for 3 days.
3. He doesn't take a pacifier. Or know how to soothe himself. Matti loved the pacifier and he was able to soothe himself from the start. Josiah is completely opposite. The pacifier pisses him off to no end & self soothing? What's that? haha. We're trying white noise & it semi worked yesterday. Again, refer to #2 about that. You know how he does soothe? By nursing.
4. He craves to be touched. If he happens to get put down, you need to be in his face or touching some part of his body. As soon as he feels that, he stops. He doesn't like feeling alone. He doesn't like not seeing anyone around him. He needs a warm body next to him. Constantly. Here's where the wrap comes in handy. This is why he wants to be held all the time. This is a reason why we co-sleep. If we didn't, we all wouldn't be sleeping. I have a bassinet in the room and it's just there. We attempt to put him there once in a while hoping it's the day that he will stay in it. We haven't found that day yet. At least we're getting some sleep. It doesn't help that at naptime I have to lay down with the boys because I'd rather be doing chores that need to caught up on. Or even just shower. One day.
5. He nurses all the time. He nurses to eat. He nurses to soothe. He nurses for comfort. He nurses just to do it. Once he's done eating, he will play for a little bit. After about 45 minutes, he gets bored and nothing will stop him from fussing until he is nursing. I see him starting to fall asleep & in an attempt to get to sleep without nursing, I try to take him off. Sometimes it works, but most times it doesn't. We start the process over. Next thing you know, I'm sitting there with a baby knocked out but very attached to me. If I try to take him off, he will wake up immediately. If not, in five minutes. IF & a very BIG IF, I manage to get him in the swing, he will stay asleep for at the most 5 minutes. & back on the breast he goes. He doesn't take a pacifier & like I said, it makes him so upset. You can only distract him so much before the only way to stop him is to nurse him.
That's just some points. some things I combined together. Motherhood with Matti just came so naturally and I thought it would be the same. I thought I was doing something wrong but I'm glad to know that there are other moms who are going through the same thing. There's a reason why they say every baby is different. & I've seen it at the extremes. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I know sooner or later, it will get better and we'll figure it out.
I've also been trying to figure out something to make my days easier since Josiah is a much much different baby than Matti was. Not to compare or anything. Matti was a very easy baby and Josiah is not easy, but challenging. I thought it'd be a breeze a second time around, but boy was I wrong. So with him being 3 months, I really wanted to figure out how to "function" as a mom to both boys and help more in the house. It's been so unbelievably hard. Josiah is just a challenging/high needs baby. Which is NOT a bad thing. I was really about to go insane before I read about it and now I'm doing better knowing I'm not doing anything wrong.
I wondered if he was acting this way because he is all breastfed and if something is wrong with me or what we're doing. I'll just rundown a list of the things.
1. He refuses to be put down. There are times when we can get away with it. Usually about 10 minutes or less. You can get more out of it if you are in his face talking to him. Not that I want to be away from my baby. I just need time to myself to take care of Matti who is potty training. & he has other needs. I need to do laundry. Our room hasn't been picked up because I'll get to it eventually. So what. I also have my needs too. We put him in a swing. On his play mat. A papa san. Car seat. Propped up to a seating position. He will not have it. & yes, you can tell me to let him cry a little. I'm not the type to come running at my baby at the first peep that he makes. I give him time to calm down, but THERE IS NO CALMING DOWN. It gets progressively louder and louder. So we hold him. I hold him. A lot. Am I spoiling him? No. There's no way to spoil a baby before a year old. He's only 3 months old. He was held constantly in my belly. Babies long for what was familiar. There's a reason he is crying and I give him his time and it doesn't work. When Josiah wants something, he wants it right there & then. He's not manipulative (he's ONLY 3 months old. He is still learning a lot. He's just started to laugh? Manipulative? No. I don't like when babies are called these things because they are so innocent! Another piece of advice. Get a carrier. Got one & I love it. Josiah loves it too.....on certain days. For the past few days, he's HATED it. Those days are tough. Today, he's sleeping very content in it. That's why I'm able to write all this out. I can hope & pray that this is a Moby day.
2. Very unpredictable. He's either super happy or he's just not having it. I call it "not in the mood." Most times he'll start out happy at some degree. It can go either way after about 5 minutes. It doesn't mean that I tiptoe with him. It just means that I can't run on a schedule no matter what. Which makes set times (church, dinner dates, etc) a little difficult. We're learning to manage. People have asked me how we're doing. & ironically, I've been saying, "we're adjusting/figuring it out." I thought it was just having two kids. In reality, I just have two different babies. Josiah does make the days interesting since we never know what's going to happen. Also, like I mentioned before, some days he loves one thing (Moby) and the next, he wants nothing to do with it. He used to love being swaddled, but that worked for 3 days.
3. He doesn't take a pacifier. Or know how to soothe himself. Matti loved the pacifier and he was able to soothe himself from the start. Josiah is completely opposite. The pacifier pisses him off to no end & self soothing? What's that? haha. We're trying white noise & it semi worked yesterday. Again, refer to #2 about that. You know how he does soothe? By nursing.
4. He craves to be touched. If he happens to get put down, you need to be in his face or touching some part of his body. As soon as he feels that, he stops. He doesn't like feeling alone. He doesn't like not seeing anyone around him. He needs a warm body next to him. Constantly. Here's where the wrap comes in handy. This is why he wants to be held all the time. This is a reason why we co-sleep. If we didn't, we all wouldn't be sleeping. I have a bassinet in the room and it's just there. We attempt to put him there once in a while hoping it's the day that he will stay in it. We haven't found that day yet. At least we're getting some sleep. It doesn't help that at naptime I have to lay down with the boys because I'd rather be doing chores that need to caught up on. Or even just shower. One day.
5. He nurses all the time. He nurses to eat. He nurses to soothe. He nurses for comfort. He nurses just to do it. Once he's done eating, he will play for a little bit. After about 45 minutes, he gets bored and nothing will stop him from fussing until he is nursing. I see him starting to fall asleep & in an attempt to get to sleep without nursing, I try to take him off. Sometimes it works, but most times it doesn't. We start the process over. Next thing you know, I'm sitting there with a baby knocked out but very attached to me. If I try to take him off, he will wake up immediately. If not, in five minutes. IF & a very BIG IF, I manage to get him in the swing, he will stay asleep for at the most 5 minutes. & back on the breast he goes. He doesn't take a pacifier & like I said, it makes him so upset. You can only distract him so much before the only way to stop him is to nurse him.
That's just some points. some things I combined together. Motherhood with Matti just came so naturally and I thought it would be the same. I thought I was doing something wrong but I'm glad to know that there are other moms who are going through the same thing. There's a reason why they say every baby is different. & I've seen it at the extremes. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I know sooner or later, it will get better and we'll figure it out.
11.06.2011
I promise to fight for you because you are my boys.
I will be brave for you even when I'm terrified.
I will love you always.
I will be mean at times but that's only because you need boundaries.
I really only do that because I love you.
I will do everything I can to protect you.
Sometimes I have to let you hurt but the pain will go away I promise.
I will cry with you.
Please don't break hearts.
I will always have time to hear you out. There is no 'just because' since that isn't fair.
We will always be fair but that doesn't mean you will get everything you ask for.
We will butt heads, I'm sure if it, and we will not go to bed without it being resolved.
After God, family comes first.
We will go to church together every Sunday & spend the day together. Trust me on this...it works.
Promise to try your absolute best in everything & that will be enough.
Don't give up so easily.
Never be afraid to cone to me.
I will sit with you when you do homework...if you ask me to. But I will always check it.
There will be a time when you will not like me, I just hope you will know that i still love you then.
I am your mother. You are my boys. My love for you is like nothing else.
I will be brave for you even when I'm terrified.
I will love you always.
I will be mean at times but that's only because you need boundaries.
I really only do that because I love you.
I will do everything I can to protect you.
Sometimes I have to let you hurt but the pain will go away I promise.
I will cry with you.
Please don't break hearts.
I will always have time to hear you out. There is no 'just because' since that isn't fair.
We will always be fair but that doesn't mean you will get everything you ask for.
We will butt heads, I'm sure if it, and we will not go to bed without it being resolved.
After God, family comes first.
We will go to church together every Sunday & spend the day together. Trust me on this...it works.
Promise to try your absolute best in everything & that will be enough.
Don't give up so easily.
Never be afraid to cone to me.
I will sit with you when you do homework...if you ask me to. But I will always check it.
There will be a time when you will not like me, I just hope you will know that i still love you then.
I am your mother. You are my boys. My love for you is like nothing else.
10.24.2011
weekend.
Just a quick recap of the weekend.
Friday night we went to Jason's co-workers house to hang out/dinner/dessert. We ate before we went since it was starting late & we were hungry. Jason made some halo halo but forgot to toast the pinipig (think rice krispies), but it was still pretty good. I had a tiny sip of Sangria and it was surprisingly good. I just wanted to taste it and was worried about my milk, but it turns out it's okay to have a little bit. Good thing Josiah wasn't due to eat for 2 hours at that point. We're slowly trying to get our social life back since we have kept ourselves in the house for the past 10 weeks. Two weekends ago, we went to the Redskins/Eagles game with our friends. It was a lot of fun even though we lost. I don't care what people say about burgundy&gold, I will always love them <3
Quick story about Matti on Friday. He & his friend (?) were upstairs playing and having a great time. Maybe two hours later, I noticed Matti lingering downstairs without his friend. He kept saying, "mommy.." really innocently which made me worry he was doing something he wasn't supposed to. He finally comes to me & says, "I want to go upstairs." I told him that he could go and he could play with his friend. He then told me that he didn't want to wake him up. His friend fell asleep on his bed and Matti didn't want to make too much noise playing so he was hanging out downstairs. How nice...wish he did that at home lol.
On the ride home that night, we asked him if he had a good time. He said that he did & we asked him what they did/played. He said that his friend told him in a scolding voice, "Go to your mommy!" I asked him why he would say that and Matti didn't give a clear answer. So, we changed the subject and asked him to tell us what they played. He mentioned how his friend fell asleep. We asked what he did then, and he replied with, "I yelled like this 'aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!'" with a smile on his face. "So, what did your friend do??" His reply? "He said, 'Go to your mommy!!" Hahah...oh Matti.
Anyway, Saturday we didn't have any plans. We wanted to go to the bank & pick up a few things, but it wasn't necessary. Jason's pretty awesome when it comes to Saturdays. He gets up with Matti & get him breakfast. They hang out and he'll check on me to see if Josiah is up & done eating. If he is, he'll usually take him so I can either sleep more or get a shower. I barely get a shower (&get ready) that lasts more than 10 minutes. So, I enjoy the days when I get them. The Saturday ended up cleaning out the walk-in closet in the guest room where we stay at. It filled 2 rooms and now you can actually walk into the closet. We moved a lot of our stuff downstairs since we really have no time frame as to when we're moving. Patience is virtue, right? We had a craving for cheese steaks but the place we get them at is a little bit of a drive (we're lazy) so we opted for Sheetz's version. Not very yummy. We had a smokehouse chicken though & that was good! Jason & I watched Copout and some of The Mask. Then, good night, sleep tight!
Sunday, we went to mass as usual. Josiah poops at church almost every Sunday. It's his "thing." It can't be any other church, it only happens at our church. He slept most of the mass and stayed pretty quiet. Matti on the other hand, is starting to act up. He was really good before. After mass we headed home to watch the game. John Beck is finally the starter QB which was who I thought was the better choice after pre season. We lost but like I said, I love my burgundy&gold. We didn't do much. Josiah fought his sleep & eating the whole day. & I feel like my body is trying to fight off some sort of sickness.
Before I end this since Baby J just woke up. Our blue bird died a week ago so we had to get a new friend for our yellow one. So, Matti picked out a new blue bird. We finally named them. Pickles & Barry. Barry is the new one & he's a lot younger so he's not so much of a chicken like Pickles. We're hoping we can hand time Barry & be able to teach him to sing/talk.
Friday night we went to Jason's co-workers house to hang out/dinner/dessert. We ate before we went since it was starting late & we were hungry. Jason made some halo halo but forgot to toast the pinipig (think rice krispies), but it was still pretty good. I had a tiny sip of Sangria and it was surprisingly good. I just wanted to taste it and was worried about my milk, but it turns out it's okay to have a little bit. Good thing Josiah wasn't due to eat for 2 hours at that point. We're slowly trying to get our social life back since we have kept ourselves in the house for the past 10 weeks. Two weekends ago, we went to the Redskins/Eagles game with our friends. It was a lot of fun even though we lost. I don't care what people say about burgundy&gold, I will always love them <3
Quick story about Matti on Friday. He & his friend (?) were upstairs playing and having a great time. Maybe two hours later, I noticed Matti lingering downstairs without his friend. He kept saying, "mommy.." really innocently which made me worry he was doing something he wasn't supposed to. He finally comes to me & says, "I want to go upstairs." I told him that he could go and he could play with his friend. He then told me that he didn't want to wake him up. His friend fell asleep on his bed and Matti didn't want to make too much noise playing so he was hanging out downstairs. How nice...wish he did that at home lol.
On the ride home that night, we asked him if he had a good time. He said that he did & we asked him what they did/played. He said that his friend told him in a scolding voice, "Go to your mommy!" I asked him why he would say that and Matti didn't give a clear answer. So, we changed the subject and asked him to tell us what they played. He mentioned how his friend fell asleep. We asked what he did then, and he replied with, "I yelled like this 'aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!'" with a smile on his face. "So, what did your friend do??" His reply? "He said, 'Go to your mommy!!" Hahah...oh Matti.
Anyway, Saturday we didn't have any plans. We wanted to go to the bank & pick up a few things, but it wasn't necessary. Jason's pretty awesome when it comes to Saturdays. He gets up with Matti & get him breakfast. They hang out and he'll check on me to see if Josiah is up & done eating. If he is, he'll usually take him so I can either sleep more or get a shower. I barely get a shower (&get ready) that lasts more than 10 minutes. So, I enjoy the days when I get them. The Saturday ended up cleaning out the walk-in closet in the guest room where we stay at. It filled 2 rooms and now you can actually walk into the closet. We moved a lot of our stuff downstairs since we really have no time frame as to when we're moving. Patience is virtue, right? We had a craving for cheese steaks but the place we get them at is a little bit of a drive (we're lazy) so we opted for Sheetz's version. Not very yummy. We had a smokehouse chicken though & that was good! Jason & I watched Copout and some of The Mask. Then, good night, sleep tight!
Sunday, we went to mass as usual. Josiah poops at church almost every Sunday. It's his "thing." It can't be any other church, it only happens at our church. He slept most of the mass and stayed pretty quiet. Matti on the other hand, is starting to act up. He was really good before. After mass we headed home to watch the game. John Beck is finally the starter QB which was who I thought was the better choice after pre season. We lost but like I said, I love my burgundy&gold. We didn't do much. Josiah fought his sleep & eating the whole day. & I feel like my body is trying to fight off some sort of sickness.
Before I end this since Baby J just woke up. Our blue bird died a week ago so we had to get a new friend for our yellow one. So, Matti picked out a new blue bird. We finally named them. Pickles & Barry. Barry is the new one & he's a lot younger so he's not so much of a chicken like Pickles. We're hoping we can hand time Barry & be able to teach him to sing/talk.
10.20.2011
I just want to organize my world.
So far so good on more updates :)
Yesterday, I was trying to figure out what to have for dinner. I knew I didn't want Italian dishes because we had so much of it in the span of four days! I was feeling a chicken or pork type of night. I couldn't find anything, but Jason was on the same mindset as I was. I found a Hoisin Chicken recipe I made a few months ago & asked if he wanted that. He replied back saying he wanted the chicken that broke his tooth. Now, there's a story to that & it wasn't my terrible cooking that chipped his tooth! It was one of the new dishes I tried out early on in our marriage. Well, when he was younger, he chipped his tooth & has a cap on it. Did not know that. The chicken was super tender and he was loving the dish. Somehow, his tooth came lose & that became the 'chicken that broke his tooth.' He doesn't call it by its name which is Honey Chicken. I went on a search for my recipe. I have them scattered everywhere. I checked my laptop, my parents' computer, emails, and finally notebooks. I finally found it in a notebook. I've always told myself I needed to organize my recipes better. I started notebooks, but quickly misplace them & start new notebooks. I think I have three right now. I decided to put some on the computer & now those are on my laptop & my parents' computer. I have a recipe box I received from the wedding with index cards, but I get lazy about having to re write the recipes on the cards. That's in the boxes somewhere in the basement (with all our other things). So, I decided I'm going to keep them online. I'm not sure if I'm going to just make a new blog to keep private & slowly share the recipes when we try them. I have a lot of "want to try" recipes, but also have "tried & loved" recipes. I don't want to overload this blog with recipes, but I want to share the recipes at some point. So, we will see.
I can't really organize anything else. I've gone through clothes to get rid of the ones I never wear. I'm really bad about keeping things because it reminds me of when I wore them & things like that. Yet, I never wear them. So, I'm in the middle of that. Every time I start back up, one of the boys need me so I have to put it on hold. I'm on day four of that. I can't organize the rest of our things because they are all in boxes & it seems like we're never going to move. I'm trying to be patient but it is bothering me knowing there are so many things in those boxes that just need to be tossed or donated. I blame it on Pinterest because I have so many ideas on what I want to do to our home, but I have to wait. & I don't like waiting. So, I guess "organizing" my recipes is the substitute for that right now.
For those that don't know, we are moving sometime in the (hopefully) near future. We're out of the apartment and shacking it up at my parents' house. We're moving into the house I pretty much grew up in (here in the US) and I'm excited. I love that house although I haven't seen the inside in a while. I'm actually excited to clean up the yard once spring comes. We plan on staying in that house for as long as we can & maybe buy it if my parents decided to give it up at some point. Either way, we're staying there. We were supposed to be there by now, but the husband ended up breaking his back. He might even need surgery! So, we're not rushing them to leave because of that. There are other reasons so we are just waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.
So yea, I better get lunch started around here. The second half of the day starts. My favorite. Lunch, naptime & daddy comes home! Haha...oh by the way, we had Smothered Pork Chops last night per Chef Jason :)
Yesterday, I was trying to figure out what to have for dinner. I knew I didn't want Italian dishes because we had so much of it in the span of four days! I was feeling a chicken or pork type of night. I couldn't find anything, but Jason was on the same mindset as I was. I found a Hoisin Chicken recipe I made a few months ago & asked if he wanted that. He replied back saying he wanted the chicken that broke his tooth. Now, there's a story to that & it wasn't my terrible cooking that chipped his tooth! It was one of the new dishes I tried out early on in our marriage. Well, when he was younger, he chipped his tooth & has a cap on it. Did not know that. The chicken was super tender and he was loving the dish. Somehow, his tooth came lose & that became the 'chicken that broke his tooth.' He doesn't call it by its name which is Honey Chicken. I went on a search for my recipe. I have them scattered everywhere. I checked my laptop, my parents' computer, emails, and finally notebooks. I finally found it in a notebook. I've always told myself I needed to organize my recipes better. I started notebooks, but quickly misplace them & start new notebooks. I think I have three right now. I decided to put some on the computer & now those are on my laptop & my parents' computer. I have a recipe box I received from the wedding with index cards, but I get lazy about having to re write the recipes on the cards. That's in the boxes somewhere in the basement (with all our other things). So, I decided I'm going to keep them online. I'm not sure if I'm going to just make a new blog to keep private & slowly share the recipes when we try them. I have a lot of "want to try" recipes, but also have "tried & loved" recipes. I don't want to overload this blog with recipes, but I want to share the recipes at some point. So, we will see.
I can't really organize anything else. I've gone through clothes to get rid of the ones I never wear. I'm really bad about keeping things because it reminds me of when I wore them & things like that. Yet, I never wear them. So, I'm in the middle of that. Every time I start back up, one of the boys need me so I have to put it on hold. I'm on day four of that. I can't organize the rest of our things because they are all in boxes & it seems like we're never going to move. I'm trying to be patient but it is bothering me knowing there are so many things in those boxes that just need to be tossed or donated. I blame it on Pinterest because I have so many ideas on what I want to do to our home, but I have to wait. & I don't like waiting. So, I guess "organizing" my recipes is the substitute for that right now.
For those that don't know, we are moving sometime in the (hopefully) near future. We're out of the apartment and shacking it up at my parents' house. We're moving into the house I pretty much grew up in (here in the US) and I'm excited. I love that house although I haven't seen the inside in a while. I'm actually excited to clean up the yard once spring comes. We plan on staying in that house for as long as we can & maybe buy it if my parents decided to give it up at some point. Either way, we're staying there. We were supposed to be there by now, but the husband ended up breaking his back. He might even need surgery! So, we're not rushing them to leave because of that. There are other reasons so we are just waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.
So yea, I better get lunch started around here. The second half of the day starts. My favorite. Lunch, naptime & daddy comes home! Haha...oh by the way, we had Smothered Pork Chops last night per Chef Jason :)
10.19.2011
Lifesaver.
It's a rainy day here and this weather always gets me super sleepy. I was online looking for recipes since I can't figure out what to make for dinner. Still haven't decided.
We didn't do much for our ten year. He said it's 'just our dating anniversary.' I think it's still pretty important to point out though because without that anniversary, we wouldn't exist as Team Jaces. Oh well....I made spaghetti for dinner last night and we finished most of it. Usually, when we cook, everyone (except my brother) eats other things. Surprisingly, everyone ate the spaghetti which was nice. Nowadays, when I do get a chance to cook, I feel somewhat human. Josiah is a much different baby compared to Matti and I'm still figuring out how to make it work. We're getting there. Which leads me to my absolute baby item right now. The Moby Wrap. This is the only way I can have two hands while Jason is at work. It was a little overwhelming when I tried to put it on the first time, but it's really easy now. Josiah absolutely loves it! He stays asleep longer in it which is really nice since he doesn't sleep very well without me nursing him. Which is tiring at times. Matter of fact, he's asleep in the Moby right now :) When we go out, we don't even bring the carrier with us. I just put on the Moby & we're on our way. People just think that I'm pregnant until they see his little head. It's really helpful especially since Matti is constantly needing something or wants help or wants to play a game or needs to go on the toilet, haha. The Moby satisfies my touchy feely baby who wants to constantly be held. Again, being able to have both arms free makes me feel somewhat human. So, if you don't have one yet, go get one. We absolutely love ours.
We didn't do much for our ten year. He said it's 'just our dating anniversary.' I think it's still pretty important to point out though because without that anniversary, we wouldn't exist as Team Jaces. Oh well....I made spaghetti for dinner last night and we finished most of it. Usually, when we cook, everyone (except my brother) eats other things. Surprisingly, everyone ate the spaghetti which was nice. Nowadays, when I do get a chance to cook, I feel somewhat human. Josiah is a much different baby compared to Matti and I'm still figuring out how to make it work. We're getting there. Which leads me to my absolute baby item right now. The Moby Wrap. This is the only way I can have two hands while Jason is at work. It was a little overwhelming when I tried to put it on the first time, but it's really easy now. Josiah absolutely loves it! He stays asleep longer in it which is really nice since he doesn't sleep very well without me nursing him. Which is tiring at times. Matter of fact, he's asleep in the Moby right now :) When we go out, we don't even bring the carrier with us. I just put on the Moby & we're on our way. People just think that I'm pregnant until they see his little head. It's really helpful especially since Matti is constantly needing something or wants help or wants to play a game or needs to go on the toilet, haha. The Moby satisfies my touchy feely baby who wants to constantly be held. Again, being able to have both arms free makes me feel somewhat human. So, if you don't have one yet, go get one. We absolutely love ours.
10.18.2011
10 years
With the exception of today, if I end up updating this more than once throughout the day, I will just add an "EDIT" with the time on it in the same post. I did that in Xanga, and it worked pretty well.
I'll start with three stories about Matti.
1. We were on the way to Pennsylvania for Poppa's funeral and we decided to get food at McDonald's since we were trying to make a short trip. We were at the drive thru waiting for our food when Matti says, "MOMMY! Look at her butt! Lookatit!" I told him that we don't say things like that, but I was curious about what he was talking about. I looked & the girl wasn't there so I asked him what he was talking about. He points and says, "Right there...look at the brown butt! HAHAHA!" I look & look until I realized what the "brown butt" was. It was a coffee bean that was on their McCafe poster. I asked if that's what he meant & he laughed with an, "Yea, the big brown butt!"
2. We were getting ready for church & we told Matti he needed to be quiet for church. He says, "I wanna go to the Bwack Church!" Confused, I asked him to repeat what he said. "I wanna go to the Bwack Church." We had no idea what he was talking about and what he meant, much less where he heard this. As far as we heard, he was saying Black. We okayed him and continued to get ready. While in the van, he was asking to go to the Bwack Church again. We haven't been going to our church since there is one closer by the house & was easier with Josiah. We pulled in the parking lot and told him we were at church. Matti says, "Yaayyy! There it is! The Bwack Church!" Something clicked in Jason's mind and he asks Matti, "Do you mean we're at the BRICK Church?" Matti replies with, "YES DADDY! We're at the BWACK CHUUURCH!" Needless to say, we've been focusing on brick with him.
3. We were in the van last night on the way to PetCo when Matti calls out to me. Now, Matti LOVES to show us he's doing something he's not supposed to do. I turned around and he showed me his hands. Which looked wet. I asked him why they were wet. I got nothing but a smirk. I asked him again and when he gave no answer, I asked if he stuck them in his mouth again. "Uhhhhh...no?" I told him not to do it again because he might get sick (since they are dirty). His reply, "Welllll, Siah sticks his hand in his mouuuuuuuff!" Ah, clever, clever child.
Matti is such a smart kid and everyday there is something new with him. He even saw a big bird at PetCo and commented that it was big (bigger than the rest of the birds there) like an EEEAAAAGLEE! Haha.
Josiah is doing well. He had his 2 month appointment and he is at 7lbs 14.8 oz, but is growing just fine. We are still breastfeeding which is great. Tiring some days, but it's worth it. He is smiling and "talking" and overall a sweet, sweet boy.
To end this really quick, since baby boy is crying, today is our 10 year anniversary :) Very exciting & we have many more years ahead of us. Kinda crazy to think 10 years ago, we were just in high school not knowing where this road would take us. It's been amazing though. Couldn't ask for anything more :)
I'll start with three stories about Matti.
1. We were on the way to Pennsylvania for Poppa's funeral and we decided to get food at McDonald's since we were trying to make a short trip. We were at the drive thru waiting for our food when Matti says, "MOMMY! Look at her butt! Lookatit!" I told him that we don't say things like that, but I was curious about what he was talking about. I looked & the girl wasn't there so I asked him what he was talking about. He points and says, "Right there...look at the brown butt! HAHAHA!" I look & look until I realized what the "brown butt" was. It was a coffee bean that was on their McCafe poster. I asked if that's what he meant & he laughed with an, "Yea, the big brown butt!"
2. We were getting ready for church & we told Matti he needed to be quiet for church. He says, "I wanna go to the Bwack Church!" Confused, I asked him to repeat what he said. "I wanna go to the Bwack Church." We had no idea what he was talking about and what he meant, much less where he heard this. As far as we heard, he was saying Black. We okayed him and continued to get ready. While in the van, he was asking to go to the Bwack Church again. We haven't been going to our church since there is one closer by the house & was easier with Josiah. We pulled in the parking lot and told him we were at church. Matti says, "Yaayyy! There it is! The Bwack Church!" Something clicked in Jason's mind and he asks Matti, "Do you mean we're at the BRICK Church?" Matti replies with, "YES DADDY! We're at the BWACK CHUUURCH!" Needless to say, we've been focusing on brick with him.
3. We were in the van last night on the way to PetCo when Matti calls out to me. Now, Matti LOVES to show us he's doing something he's not supposed to do. I turned around and he showed me his hands. Which looked wet. I asked him why they were wet. I got nothing but a smirk. I asked him again and when he gave no answer, I asked if he stuck them in his mouth again. "Uhhhhh...no?" I told him not to do it again because he might get sick (since they are dirty). His reply, "Welllll, Siah sticks his hand in his mouuuuuuuff!" Ah, clever, clever child.
Matti is such a smart kid and everyday there is something new with him. He even saw a big bird at PetCo and commented that it was big (bigger than the rest of the birds there) like an EEEAAAAGLEE! Haha.
Josiah is doing well. He had his 2 month appointment and he is at 7lbs 14.8 oz, but is growing just fine. We are still breastfeeding which is great. Tiring some days, but it's worth it. He is smiling and "talking" and overall a sweet, sweet boy.
To end this really quick, since baby boy is crying, today is our 10 year anniversary :) Very exciting & we have many more years ahead of us. Kinda crazy to think 10 years ago, we were just in high school not knowing where this road would take us. It's been amazing though. Couldn't ask for anything more :)
New start.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. A few things have happened & I was really trying to figure out what I wanted to do.
A really good friend of mine passed away unexpectedly a few weeks ago. It hurt a lot to hear this news, but I am healing. I met his family for the first time and I was able to say goodbye to him one last time. Jason grandpa also passed away and that was a hard one as well. Jason played TAPS for the funeral & I'd never felt so much emotion as I did that moment. I think it was just a mixture of everything then.
A few days after Blake's viewing, I wasn't able to sleep very well because I was trying to remember as much as I could about him. The conversations we had, what we said, what we did when we hung out...just everything. I was afraid that I was going to forget him & that's not what I wanted to do. I felt bad when his sister & mom asked for a memory of him and I couldn't think of anything more than our phone conversations. One day, I decided to read my old blogs. I had an EasyJournal (which is now gone) and two Xangas (which are still up). In it, I found little things that I had forgotten about our friendship. Reading the posts that mentioned him made me smile & I was thankful that I blogged a lot during that time frame. So, because of that, I decided I needed to make a point to blog a lot more often.
I made a Tumblr for Josiah when he was still in my belly that I was supposed to fill with our adventures, but I didn't do a very good job. I was going to start updating that more often and to make a Tumblr dedicated to Matti. I wanted a place to write everything down since Matti is too funny & I want to remember the things he does now. I haven't made his Tumblr yet. The other day, I realized that having more than one blog would be harder for me since I'm so bad at updating just ONE. So, I'm just going to combine everything to this one. Because this one is titled, "...and this is my life." & they are just that, my life. So, here I will just post again ramblings of a housewife, little things my boys do, possibly recipes that I've tried & have fallen in love with, pictures, and just anything that involves our little world. So, hopefully I will be able to keep up with this more and really truly start blogging again.
A really good friend of mine passed away unexpectedly a few weeks ago. It hurt a lot to hear this news, but I am healing. I met his family for the first time and I was able to say goodbye to him one last time. Jason grandpa also passed away and that was a hard one as well. Jason played TAPS for the funeral & I'd never felt so much emotion as I did that moment. I think it was just a mixture of everything then.
A few days after Blake's viewing, I wasn't able to sleep very well because I was trying to remember as much as I could about him. The conversations we had, what we said, what we did when we hung out...just everything. I was afraid that I was going to forget him & that's not what I wanted to do. I felt bad when his sister & mom asked for a memory of him and I couldn't think of anything more than our phone conversations. One day, I decided to read my old blogs. I had an EasyJournal (which is now gone) and two Xangas (which are still up). In it, I found little things that I had forgotten about our friendship. Reading the posts that mentioned him made me smile & I was thankful that I blogged a lot during that time frame. So, because of that, I decided I needed to make a point to blog a lot more often.
I made a Tumblr for Josiah when he was still in my belly that I was supposed to fill with our adventures, but I didn't do a very good job. I was going to start updating that more often and to make a Tumblr dedicated to Matti. I wanted a place to write everything down since Matti is too funny & I want to remember the things he does now. I haven't made his Tumblr yet. The other day, I realized that having more than one blog would be harder for me since I'm so bad at updating just ONE. So, I'm just going to combine everything to this one. Because this one is titled, "...and this is my life." & they are just that, my life. So, here I will just post again ramblings of a housewife, little things my boys do, possibly recipes that I've tried & have fallen in love with, pictures, and just anything that involves our little world. So, hopefully I will be able to keep up with this more and really truly start blogging again.
10.04.2011
When someone dies, we celebrate their life because we know they are in a better place. I feel that way for you, but at the same time it's different. I've never had a friend pass away before & on top of that, someone special to me. & because of that, I'm having a hard time understanding everything. I don't know how to feel... I know you're smiling down on us. I know you're at peace. I just still can't believe it. Paint the sky...
9.08.2011
Never our plan, always God's plan.
Life has been so insanely busy. I checked and my last post was July 22nd talking about how insanely busy we were going to be. Never in my mind did I think that it would be ten times more than what I thought it was going to be. SO. Josiah's due date was September 2nd. Notice I said, "WAS."
I'll start on Monday, August 8th. I was feeling pretty good still although I did notice things that I didn't feel with Matti. I just coughed it up to me working in this pregnancy. That Friday could have been my last day at work if I felt that I just needed to stop working. I really wanted to make it to the 19th, which was the following Friday. I woke up and I did the usual morning routine & one of those things was logging onto Facebook. Haha. That day, I wrote a status regarding how I needed to stop being lazy & just pack my hospital bag. Matti was born "on time." He was born 5 hours & 26 minutes after his due date--close enough. In my mind, this was going to happen again. I had an appointment the 9th and I had questions to ask my doctor. Anyway, I went to work (11am-6pm) and everything was fine. I felt some Braxton Hicks but nothing out of the ordinary. (I find out later that my boss & head teller noticed that I was extremely low at this point..but it didn't bother me) I called my mom during my lunch break to let her know I wanted to come by her house this week to get Matti's baby clothes & the baby shower gifts so I can get started on washing them. After work, I went to get some things for dinner that night. Bacon Wrapped Chicken was Jason's request. Remember, we were in the process of moving (lease ended 8/26) so our house was a mess so I was making dinner for him. He'd been really good about taking on house chores :) We had dinner and we just watched TV the rest of the night. I convinced him to stay up a little later with me and around 10 or 11, we went to bed. I was already an insomniac at this point so I kept the TV on in the room until about 11:50 pm. I browsed on the iTouch for a little bit and eventually, rolled over to crowd Jason. I was almost asleep when all of a sudden I felt a pop, and a gush. My eyes popped open so fast and I just kinda lied there waiting for it to stop. When it didn't, I woke up...well tried...Jason. "I'm all wet. I'm ALL wet. The bed is getting wet." I kept repeating this until he fully realizes what I'm saying. "Your water broke? What?! NO!" Now, he was only saying no because we WERE ABSOLUTELY FAR FROM READY. The apartment was a mess, we had NO baby clothes washed, the bassinet was still at his parents' house, our bags weren't packed, Matti's bag wasn't packed. He immediately started getting everything together. I swear he's the best husband ever. What was I doing? Contemplating what the next step was. This was one of the questions I had for the doctor. What do I do if my water breaks? My water didn't break with Matti. I was pushing already & they popped it for me! So, I asked for the netbook and I went to my BFF Google to ask what I should do next. This I did for thirty minutes before I decided to get up and get myself cleaned up. There were differing answers and my main concern was that I was going to go in & end up progressing REALLY slow and they would induce me which I didn't want to do. I wanted an all natural deliver again. I sat in our dining room and saw Matti fast asleep. I got really sad because I realized, "Oh my gosh. He is not going to be my only baby anymore." I told Jason, "I'm sad. I'm notd one with Matti being my only baby :(" After about an hour, I decided to call the doctor to make sure I needed to come in & of course I did. Jason called my parents and we met up with them to switch cars. Our van was full of our stuff to move & of course Matti and Teddi. The contractions were starting but they were just cramps more than anything. Matti woke up and asked to come. We told him I had to go to the hospital because Josiah wanted to come out. He was happy to go with Lolo & Lola though. My mom was surprised I was still smiling and laughing & she kept telling me she knew I was a brave woman. haha. I think we got to the hospital around 2am and made our way to the maternity ward. They put me in the post partum room since the delivery rooms were full. The nurse took a strip to see if in fact my water broke. It was to turn blue if it was my water & I would've been embarassed if it wasn't blue lol. Of course it was. We were getting admitted & we looked at each other thinking the same thing. "Is this happening NOW?!" It was only August 9! We were waiting for them to clean a room & by 3am, we walked over to Delivery Room #2. We love our 2's! We got settled in & I got hooked up to the monitors which showed I was having contractions. I was only at 1 cm so I was still feeling good. I slept here & there but it's hard when you have people coming in & out. It was Tuesday so USA had Law & Order SVU on all day--which is my favorite show. Around 5, I could feel the contractions, but breathing through them. I was still trying to sleep lol. I remember looking at the clock waiting for the time to call my boss to let her know I had my last day the day before. Jason finally called at 730 or 8. I just remember focusing on my contractions and relaxing my body. At 830, I asked to be checked because I remembered the feeling from last time so I wanted to know where I was. 4 cm 80% effaced. HUH. 4 cm? Still with no sleep since Monday night, I was a little bummed. They knew I wanted to go all natural, but I know they need to let me know I still could change my mind. The nurse asked if I wanted Demerol. I paused & contemplated........and said, "No I'm still good." Jason said he saw my hesitation. I know I would've been upset with myself if I had said yes instead. The next hour flew by so fast. Around 930, I was getting two contractions at a time so I knew I was extremely close. Jason was really good about telling me to breathe and that I was doing a great job. The nurses were really good about it too. I had that urge in my bottom again so I knew we were almost there. I asked to get checked and yes, I was at 8cm but very close to 9cm! The nurses kept asking if I was okay after the contractions & I told them, "I'm good now...it just sucks when I have one haha." We were so close and the excitement was building. Dr. Davis came in to let me know he was there and ready for me. He said, "Well...you've been here a while huh?" I told him it was longer than with Matti (4 hour labor after admission), but hey, at least it wasn't 30 hours like some women! We also joked about how this is what happens when you have a "boring" pregnancy. I never had questions or complaints at my visits and they kept telling me to "stay boring." haha. I think around 945, the nurse said I could practice pushing if I felt I needed to & asked if I remembered how to push. I made a mess of myself every contraction at that point and kept apologizing to the nurse, Tiff, who was really sweet. So, I tried pushing and they said I was pushing perfectly. At this point, I just kept my eyes closed and focused on the contractions and rested the time between. All I could hear was Jason and Tiff, but apparently there were more people in the room. I was in the zone and focused on getting Josiah out. There was a point when my concentration was broken, haha. I was between contractions and I heard a voice, which I believe was the midwife, say, "You are stretching beeeeeuuuuuutifully!" LOL...I was close to opening my eyes and looking at whoever it was and give her this look and say, "Really now...?" Josiah was smaller than Matti so I account that to the fact that I couldn't tell that he had made most of the way down until Jason said, "Fran! Open your eyes! He's here...his head is out..LOOK BABE!" I remember thinking, "WHAT? Already?" I'm telling you, I was in disbelief from the start of this whole thing! He was crying already & out he came and I remember saying, "Look how tiny you are...hey...that's not my nose!" He had a cord around his neck & body & he had one arm draped across his chest to his other shoulder. He was perfectly fine and his breathing was fine. They let me know that since he is considered early, he might have some breathing issues, but nope, he was fine. He was born 5 lbs & 9 oz and 19 inches long. I did tear but it was a small one and only got a few stitches. I swear, getting those is worse than labor & delivery! We were given the choice to go home the following day, but they weren't sure if Josiah would be released so we ended up staying. Tiff came to my post partum room the next day to say bye to me and to tell me that I did more than awesome. One of the other nurses that was watching me had never seen an all natural birth until mine and she said I was a good model since I didn't scream my head off. I'm so glad to have done it again. We went home (my mom's where we are now) Thursday but Friday his jaundice levels were too high so he was admitted again to go under the lights. Saturday, he was released and we've been home since.He's 4 weeks already! He now weighs 6 lbs 10.5 oz and is 20.5 in long! & he's running off mommy's milk :) My recovery has been great! I felt almost normal within a week and was doing stuff around the house. I guess my body just remembered how to get back on track.
Apparently 8/9 was the day to have babies. The maternity ward had 12 babies that day. My friend who was due the day before my due date had her son that day too! & then another friend had her grand daughter born on that day as well. Josiah wanted in on the fun! Oh...he was born on his great grandmother's birthday :) The nurses said that whenever the weather changes drastically, a lot of babies are born. That week, it went from extremely hot to a nice comfy summer day. So, it's not the moon to watch out for ;)
This just goes to show that no matter what we plan, it's never OURS. It'll happen all in God's time. Thank you Lord for letting me have a safe labor & delivery with Josiah. Although he was early, he is perfectly healthy. Thank you.
I'll start on Monday, August 8th. I was feeling pretty good still although I did notice things that I didn't feel with Matti. I just coughed it up to me working in this pregnancy. That Friday could have been my last day at work if I felt that I just needed to stop working. I really wanted to make it to the 19th, which was the following Friday. I woke up and I did the usual morning routine & one of those things was logging onto Facebook. Haha. That day, I wrote a status regarding how I needed to stop being lazy & just pack my hospital bag. Matti was born "on time." He was born 5 hours & 26 minutes after his due date--close enough. In my mind, this was going to happen again. I had an appointment the 9th and I had questions to ask my doctor. Anyway, I went to work (11am-6pm) and everything was fine. I felt some Braxton Hicks but nothing out of the ordinary. (I find out later that my boss & head teller noticed that I was extremely low at this point..but it didn't bother me) I called my mom during my lunch break to let her know I wanted to come by her house this week to get Matti's baby clothes & the baby shower gifts so I can get started on washing them. After work, I went to get some things for dinner that night. Bacon Wrapped Chicken was Jason's request. Remember, we were in the process of moving (lease ended 8/26) so our house was a mess so I was making dinner for him. He'd been really good about taking on house chores :) We had dinner and we just watched TV the rest of the night. I convinced him to stay up a little later with me and around 10 or 11, we went to bed. I was already an insomniac at this point so I kept the TV on in the room until about 11:50 pm. I browsed on the iTouch for a little bit and eventually, rolled over to crowd Jason. I was almost asleep when all of a sudden I felt a pop, and a gush. My eyes popped open so fast and I just kinda lied there waiting for it to stop. When it didn't, I woke up...well tried...Jason. "I'm all wet. I'm ALL wet. The bed is getting wet." I kept repeating this until he fully realizes what I'm saying. "Your water broke? What?! NO!" Now, he was only saying no because we WERE ABSOLUTELY FAR FROM READY. The apartment was a mess, we had NO baby clothes washed, the bassinet was still at his parents' house, our bags weren't packed, Matti's bag wasn't packed. He immediately started getting everything together. I swear he's the best husband ever. What was I doing? Contemplating what the next step was. This was one of the questions I had for the doctor. What do I do if my water breaks? My water didn't break with Matti. I was pushing already & they popped it for me! So, I asked for the netbook and I went to my BFF Google to ask what I should do next. This I did for thirty minutes before I decided to get up and get myself cleaned up. There were differing answers and my main concern was that I was going to go in & end up progressing REALLY slow and they would induce me which I didn't want to do. I wanted an all natural deliver again. I sat in our dining room and saw Matti fast asleep. I got really sad because I realized, "Oh my gosh. He is not going to be my only baby anymore." I told Jason, "I'm sad. I'm notd one with Matti being my only baby :(" After about an hour, I decided to call the doctor to make sure I needed to come in & of course I did. Jason called my parents and we met up with them to switch cars. Our van was full of our stuff to move & of course Matti and Teddi. The contractions were starting but they were just cramps more than anything. Matti woke up and asked to come. We told him I had to go to the hospital because Josiah wanted to come out. He was happy to go with Lolo & Lola though. My mom was surprised I was still smiling and laughing & she kept telling me she knew I was a brave woman. haha. I think we got to the hospital around 2am and made our way to the maternity ward. They put me in the post partum room since the delivery rooms were full. The nurse took a strip to see if in fact my water broke. It was to turn blue if it was my water & I would've been embarassed if it wasn't blue lol. Of course it was. We were getting admitted & we looked at each other thinking the same thing. "Is this happening NOW?!" It was only August 9! We were waiting for them to clean a room & by 3am, we walked over to Delivery Room #2. We love our 2's! We got settled in & I got hooked up to the monitors which showed I was having contractions. I was only at 1 cm so I was still feeling good. I slept here & there but it's hard when you have people coming in & out. It was Tuesday so USA had Law & Order SVU on all day--which is my favorite show. Around 5, I could feel the contractions, but breathing through them. I was still trying to sleep lol. I remember looking at the clock waiting for the time to call my boss to let her know I had my last day the day before. Jason finally called at 730 or 8. I just remember focusing on my contractions and relaxing my body. At 830, I asked to be checked because I remembered the feeling from last time so I wanted to know where I was. 4 cm 80% effaced. HUH. 4 cm? Still with no sleep since Monday night, I was a little bummed. They knew I wanted to go all natural, but I know they need to let me know I still could change my mind. The nurse asked if I wanted Demerol. I paused & contemplated........and said, "No I'm still good." Jason said he saw my hesitation. I know I would've been upset with myself if I had said yes instead. The next hour flew by so fast. Around 930, I was getting two contractions at a time so I knew I was extremely close. Jason was really good about telling me to breathe and that I was doing a great job. The nurses were really good about it too. I had that urge in my bottom again so I knew we were almost there. I asked to get checked and yes, I was at 8cm but very close to 9cm! The nurses kept asking if I was okay after the contractions & I told them, "I'm good now...it just sucks when I have one haha." We were so close and the excitement was building. Dr. Davis came in to let me know he was there and ready for me. He said, "Well...you've been here a while huh?" I told him it was longer than with Matti (4 hour labor after admission), but hey, at least it wasn't 30 hours like some women! We also joked about how this is what happens when you have a "boring" pregnancy. I never had questions or complaints at my visits and they kept telling me to "stay boring." haha. I think around 945, the nurse said I could practice pushing if I felt I needed to & asked if I remembered how to push. I made a mess of myself every contraction at that point and kept apologizing to the nurse, Tiff, who was really sweet. So, I tried pushing and they said I was pushing perfectly. At this point, I just kept my eyes closed and focused on the contractions and rested the time between. All I could hear was Jason and Tiff, but apparently there were more people in the room. I was in the zone and focused on getting Josiah out. There was a point when my concentration was broken, haha. I was between contractions and I heard a voice, which I believe was the midwife, say, "You are stretching beeeeeuuuuuutifully!" LOL...I was close to opening my eyes and looking at whoever it was and give her this look and say, "Really now...?" Josiah was smaller than Matti so I account that to the fact that I couldn't tell that he had made most of the way down until Jason said, "Fran! Open your eyes! He's here...his head is out..LOOK BABE!" I remember thinking, "WHAT? Already?" I'm telling you, I was in disbelief from the start of this whole thing! He was crying already & out he came and I remember saying, "Look how tiny you are...hey...that's not my nose!" He had a cord around his neck & body & he had one arm draped across his chest to his other shoulder. He was perfectly fine and his breathing was fine. They let me know that since he is considered early, he might have some breathing issues, but nope, he was fine. He was born 5 lbs & 9 oz and 19 inches long. I did tear but it was a small one and only got a few stitches. I swear, getting those is worse than labor & delivery! We were given the choice to go home the following day, but they weren't sure if Josiah would be released so we ended up staying. Tiff came to my post partum room the next day to say bye to me and to tell me that I did more than awesome. One of the other nurses that was watching me had never seen an all natural birth until mine and she said I was a good model since I didn't scream my head off. I'm so glad to have done it again. We went home (my mom's where we are now) Thursday but Friday his jaundice levels were too high so he was admitted again to go under the lights. Saturday, he was released and we've been home since.He's 4 weeks already! He now weighs 6 lbs 10.5 oz and is 20.5 in long! & he's running off mommy's milk :) My recovery has been great! I felt almost normal within a week and was doing stuff around the house. I guess my body just remembered how to get back on track.
Apparently 8/9 was the day to have babies. The maternity ward had 12 babies that day. My friend who was due the day before my due date had her son that day too! & then another friend had her grand daughter born on that day as well. Josiah wanted in on the fun! Oh...he was born on his great grandmother's birthday :) The nurses said that whenever the weather changes drastically, a lot of babies are born. That week, it went from extremely hot to a nice comfy summer day. So, it's not the moon to watch out for ;)
This just goes to show that no matter what we plan, it's never OURS. It'll happen all in God's time. Thank you Lord for letting me have a safe labor & delivery with Josiah. Although he was early, he is perfectly healthy. Thank you.
7.22.2011
Hi.
I just need a place to put this where it won't get stacked with a pile of bills or throw away....or just get lost somewhere.
We have soooo much to do in the month to come. Our lease ends by the end of August. Jason's already started packing up boxes of things that we don't use--it seems like a lot already. We've taken packed boxes back to my parents' basement already. We're staying with them for at least a little over a month before we can move into our new place. Which is the house I grew up in & I'm really excited. Love that house! So all the things that go with moving--cleaning the apartment, getting the carpet cleaned, cutting off utilities, packing, packing packing. We have to make sure we leave out things we will need as far as clothes--especially for Josiah! Which leads to doing baby laundry, getting all the essentials needed for his arrival, packing the hospital bag for both me & Jake, and I don't even know right now. My last day at work is 8/12 or 8/19 depending on how I feel. I really wanted to work until the later date, but the way I have been feeling this week, it may be the earlier date. Work is just so busy right now which is a whole 'nother thing! To top this all off, Matti is being gifted two parakeets very soon. I still can't believe my mom said it was okay to get the birds now rather than after the move. After all, we will be invading her home along with Teddi & Josiah when he gets here. Oh let's not forget, I have to give birth! haha. Can we first forward about two months & be moved in already? Thanks.
We have soooo much to do in the month to come. Our lease ends by the end of August. Jason's already started packing up boxes of things that we don't use--it seems like a lot already. We've taken packed boxes back to my parents' basement already. We're staying with them for at least a little over a month before we can move into our new place. Which is the house I grew up in & I'm really excited. Love that house! So all the things that go with moving--cleaning the apartment, getting the carpet cleaned, cutting off utilities, packing, packing packing. We have to make sure we leave out things we will need as far as clothes--especially for Josiah! Which leads to doing baby laundry, getting all the essentials needed for his arrival, packing the hospital bag for both me & Jake, and I don't even know right now. My last day at work is 8/12 or 8/19 depending on how I feel. I really wanted to work until the later date, but the way I have been feeling this week, it may be the earlier date. Work is just so busy right now which is a whole 'nother thing! To top this all off, Matti is being gifted two parakeets very soon. I still can't believe my mom said it was okay to get the birds now rather than after the move. After all, we will be invading her home along with Teddi & Josiah when he gets here. Oh let's not forget, I have to give birth! haha. Can we first forward about two months & be moved in already? Thanks.
6.29.2011
My boy is 3!
Matti turned three last week and we had a small celebration with our families. He wanted pizza so we took him to Cici's where we all chowed down. I found Cars themed cupcakes instead of a big cake. He loved them :) Saturday, we took him to the movies to see Cars 2 & he was able to make it through the whole movie. There was a lot of shooting/guns in the movie though which seemed a little much. It was still okay though, but I think Matti still prefers the first one. His favorite card is a Cars one which plays the song "Life is a Highway" from the first movie. He's constantly playing the card. His godparents got him a kitchen which I've been trying to convince Jason to do. He was reluctant at first (since it's "girl" toy), but after seeing Matti play with one at a friend's house, he was okay with it. Matti loved to pretend cook before, and with his new kitchen, he's whipping up meals left & right :)
Today he had his 3 year check up. Since his 2 year check up, he kinda got the hint that the doctor got in his personal space & used weird gadgets to listen to his body, and most times, he got poked with needles...so he wasn't really a fan. He had weight issues as well which led us to the doctor more times that usual & he just was not a fan. I was dreading it and Jason was able to leave work to meet me because he knew I was nervous about it. Did I mention I have a great husband? They are in a new building as well so Matti didn't know we were at the doctors yet. We let him press the arrows & numbers for the elevator & all was well. We didn't wait long at all which was good. He was in a really good mood. Naming animals that he saw on the walls and just talking away. He didn't stand on the scale again so Jason had to weigh himself & then hold Matti to find the difference. He DID stay still for his height. He is 24 lbs & 34 or 36 inches (I can't remember already!). He's below the 5th percentile for his weight & in the 25th for his height. The doctor wasn't concerned and thinks he's doing great. He was 19 lbs at his 2 year check up so he gained 5 lbs this year. The weight has always been a concern with Matti. He wasn't gaining any weight or he was losing it. Which led him to switching to soy milk & limiting his dairy to the minimal amount. He gets some once in a while. So, we were all happy to see that he gained so much in the past year. We're hoping he continues to gain, but she did say that growing at this age kind of plateaus. She tested his skills too which made me super proud! He has a Thomas backpack which has Thomas & Percy on it. She asked who they were and he named both of them. She asked what color each were & he got them both, but he did say yellow instead of blue--which he always does. I know he knows the difference though...I think it's just him being silly. She asked where James was (since he wasn't on the bag) and what color he is & he replied with, "Red." She was happy to see him know his colors and that he could remember what something is without it being present. She then asked to point to body parts which she did last year too, but he was happy to show her. Then, she started having a conversation with him. It went like this:
Doctor: Matti, what do you tell mommy when you're hungry?
Matti: Mommy, I hungry! (although this morning it was, "Mommy, I soooo huunngryy!")
Doctor: And...what do you like to eat when you're hungry?
*I assumed he was gonna say cooookies! lol*
Matti: I like to eat RICE!!
We all got a good laugh about that and she was happy to see him forming sentences. & being able to hold a conversation. She liked that although it was random question, he was still able to answer her.
She then continued with the check up. The blood pressure cuff was so cute & I think Matti was slightly amused by the whole thing. He didn't like the stethoscope still and wouldn't open up his mouth for her. He eventually did, but he freaked out when she tried to listen to his lungs. So, she got a bunch of books and we looked through them while she listened. I was able to distract him because one of the books had a clock that you could turn the hands on. So, I told him to tell me the numbers he saw & he did. She noted that he knew his numbers and pretty soon it was all done.
All in all we got a clean bill of health. She said he looks like a healthy 3 year old and that she wasn't concerned with anything. He did get one shot which he fussed a little about, but was okay once he knew we were leaving. He got two lollipops out of the visit & the doctor gave him the clock book too. The doctor said well hopefully we'll be seeing you with the new baby :) She was my pediatrician too!
Today he had his 3 year check up. Since his 2 year check up, he kinda got the hint that the doctor got in his personal space & used weird gadgets to listen to his body, and most times, he got poked with needles...so he wasn't really a fan. He had weight issues as well which led us to the doctor more times that usual & he just was not a fan. I was dreading it and Jason was able to leave work to meet me because he knew I was nervous about it. Did I mention I have a great husband? They are in a new building as well so Matti didn't know we were at the doctors yet. We let him press the arrows & numbers for the elevator & all was well. We didn't wait long at all which was good. He was in a really good mood. Naming animals that he saw on the walls and just talking away. He didn't stand on the scale again so Jason had to weigh himself & then hold Matti to find the difference. He DID stay still for his height. He is 24 lbs & 34 or 36 inches (I can't remember already!). He's below the 5th percentile for his weight & in the 25th for his height. The doctor wasn't concerned and thinks he's doing great. He was 19 lbs at his 2 year check up so he gained 5 lbs this year. The weight has always been a concern with Matti. He wasn't gaining any weight or he was losing it. Which led him to switching to soy milk & limiting his dairy to the minimal amount. He gets some once in a while. So, we were all happy to see that he gained so much in the past year. We're hoping he continues to gain, but she did say that growing at this age kind of plateaus. She tested his skills too which made me super proud! He has a Thomas backpack which has Thomas & Percy on it. She asked who they were and he named both of them. She asked what color each were & he got them both, but he did say yellow instead of blue--which he always does. I know he knows the difference though...I think it's just him being silly. She asked where James was (since he wasn't on the bag) and what color he is & he replied with, "Red." She was happy to see him know his colors and that he could remember what something is without it being present. She then asked to point to body parts which she did last year too, but he was happy to show her. Then, she started having a conversation with him. It went like this:
Doctor: Matti, what do you tell mommy when you're hungry?
Matti: Mommy, I hungry! (although this morning it was, "Mommy, I soooo huunngryy!")
Doctor: And...what do you like to eat when you're hungry?
*I assumed he was gonna say cooookies! lol*
Matti: I like to eat RICE!!
We all got a good laugh about that and she was happy to see him forming sentences. & being able to hold a conversation. She liked that although it was random question, he was still able to answer her.
She then continued with the check up. The blood pressure cuff was so cute & I think Matti was slightly amused by the whole thing. He didn't like the stethoscope still and wouldn't open up his mouth for her. He eventually did, but he freaked out when she tried to listen to his lungs. So, she got a bunch of books and we looked through them while she listened. I was able to distract him because one of the books had a clock that you could turn the hands on. So, I told him to tell me the numbers he saw & he did. She noted that he knew his numbers and pretty soon it was all done.
All in all we got a clean bill of health. She said he looks like a healthy 3 year old and that she wasn't concerned with anything. He did get one shot which he fussed a little about, but was okay once he knew we were leaving. He got two lollipops out of the visit & the doctor gave him the clock book too. The doctor said well hopefully we'll be seeing you with the new baby :) She was my pediatrician too!
6.08.2011
Nothing else matters.
Although he is doing all that he can to get under my skin right now, haha, I wanted to write a little about my big boy Matti. He will be turning three in a few weeks and I can't believe how much he has grown.
Just last night, we were having dinner. We had my brother over because we rented a movie the previous night (LOVE Redbox codes!) and didn't have a chance to watch it. Jason whipped up some stuffed bell pepper with rice and when I got home, I made some zucchini. Matti was acting up a little bit so Jason put him in time out and the three of us prayed over our food. When Matti's time was up, he sat down in his chair and started whining again. Now, at the this point, I was just tired so in my mind, I was thinking, "What's wrong nooowww..??" I looked over at him and asked him what was wrong and he says in a whiny voice, "I wanna prayyy........" So we prayed a second time and he was just thrilled to eat his dinner. That moment just made me beyond happy. Sure, he can sing songs, say his ABC's, numbers, tell stories, know who certain people are, but nothing beats him wanting to pray. To me, that surpasses everything else. As a mom, I want nothing more than for my children to know & love the Lord.
"The goal is not to raise well-mannered heathen. What we long for is to reach his boyish heart and inspire in him a desire to be the Lord's man." (taken from Ate Josette)
Just last night, we were having dinner. We had my brother over because we rented a movie the previous night (LOVE Redbox codes!) and didn't have a chance to watch it. Jason whipped up some stuffed bell pepper with rice and when I got home, I made some zucchini. Matti was acting up a little bit so Jason put him in time out and the three of us prayed over our food. When Matti's time was up, he sat down in his chair and started whining again. Now, at the this point, I was just tired so in my mind, I was thinking, "What's wrong nooowww..??" I looked over at him and asked him what was wrong and he says in a whiny voice, "I wanna prayyy........" So we prayed a second time and he was just thrilled to eat his dinner. That moment just made me beyond happy. Sure, he can sing songs, say his ABC's, numbers, tell stories, know who certain people are, but nothing beats him wanting to pray. To me, that surpasses everything else. As a mom, I want nothing more than for my children to know & love the Lord.
"The goal is not to raise well-mannered heathen. What we long for is to reach his boyish heart and inspire in him a desire to be the Lord's man." (taken from Ate Josette)
5.25.2011
Days with Matti.
So a few weekends ago, we took Matti to Day Out With Thomas. We went with Jason's brother, his wife & their son. We call them twinnies. It was a really good day and the boys both had a lot of fun. I think we will be willing to take Matti again whenever Thomas comes back. It was also Mother's Day & after hanging out with Thomas, we met up with Jason's family at the National Harbor. We walked around a bit, and I just love it there. There are restaurants and shops everywhere, and I just love places like that. Also, the harbor with a man buried in the sand ;) We had dinner at Thai Pavillion and ate a lot of yummy food.
I came on here because I wanted to write a few things that I wanted to remember, haha. Matti is almost 3 years old and it blows my mind. He is such a joy and so much fun. I know I probably say that all the time. I just love the funny stories that come out of his mouth and the things that he says. They are blog worthy so that my pregnant mind doesn't stash them away to a place I'll never find.
This brings me to the steak story. Matti LOVES steak. He is like his mommy&daddy and appreciates good steak. Jason has got his steak skills down and has his way of cooking it in his cast iron skillet. We were having steak with pasta salad & veggies one night. Matti finished off his steak first and wanted more. We told him to eat the other things on his plate & we would give him more. So after each bite of veggie or pasta, he would ask for steak. We kept telling him to keep eating his food. Continue for about five minutes. He is focusing on me because I'm the closest and he sees me with my steak. He doesn't realize that Jason is already cutting small pieces for him. We decide he'd eaten enough of his other food that we told him to ask Jesus for more steak. At this point, Jason already put more steak on Matti's plate. Matti does the sign of the cross and says, "Jesus, can I have more steak, Pllleeeease?? Amen." He looks down on his plate & sees the mountain of steak & yells, "OMYGOSH!!" Thank you Jesus!" Haha....
Now onto the meatball story. He's at the age where he really comprehends what is going on in books, stories, and shows. One day, we were reading out of his Toddler Bible and we were at Genesis. There was a picture of a big brown circle which was representing Earth when there was only darkness. God hadn't created light and everything yet. So, I started reading, "In the beginning, there was a...." Matti cuts me off and yells, "MEATBALLL!! MOMMY, A MEEAAATBALL!!" I couldn't help but start laughing. So, according to my almost three year old, In the beginning, there was a meatball.
Since meeting Thomas, riding on Thomas, and everything Thomas, Matti is completely even more in love with Thomas. We finally, finally, finally bought a Thomas DVD for him which has been watched everyday. Matti loves to dance to the music and he dances with his elbows extended to his side and fists on his chest while moving to the side. He saw them doing this on Dancing With the Stars and since been dancing like that. As I was cleaning up the kitchen, he was saying, "Go Thomas, Go Percy, Go Thomas, Go Percy...Go BOOOYY!" Hahaha...
Needless to say, I have a lot of reasons to smile. Not to mention the wonderful bbBean who is constantly on the move. Although uncomfortable at times, I can't complain because I know he's alright.
I came on here because I wanted to write a few things that I wanted to remember, haha. Matti is almost 3 years old and it blows my mind. He is such a joy and so much fun. I know I probably say that all the time. I just love the funny stories that come out of his mouth and the things that he says. They are blog worthy so that my pregnant mind doesn't stash them away to a place I'll never find.
This brings me to the steak story. Matti LOVES steak. He is like his mommy&daddy and appreciates good steak. Jason has got his steak skills down and has his way of cooking it in his cast iron skillet. We were having steak with pasta salad & veggies one night. Matti finished off his steak first and wanted more. We told him to eat the other things on his plate & we would give him more. So after each bite of veggie or pasta, he would ask for steak. We kept telling him to keep eating his food. Continue for about five minutes. He is focusing on me because I'm the closest and he sees me with my steak. He doesn't realize that Jason is already cutting small pieces for him. We decide he'd eaten enough of his other food that we told him to ask Jesus for more steak. At this point, Jason already put more steak on Matti's plate. Matti does the sign of the cross and says, "Jesus, can I have more steak, Pllleeeease?? Amen." He looks down on his plate & sees the mountain of steak & yells, "OMYGOSH!!" Thank you Jesus!" Haha....
Now onto the meatball story. He's at the age where he really comprehends what is going on in books, stories, and shows. One day, we were reading out of his Toddler Bible and we were at Genesis. There was a picture of a big brown circle which was representing Earth when there was only darkness. God hadn't created light and everything yet. So, I started reading, "In the beginning, there was a...." Matti cuts me off and yells, "MEATBALLL!! MOMMY, A MEEAAATBALL!!" I couldn't help but start laughing. So, according to my almost three year old, In the beginning, there was a meatball.
Since meeting Thomas, riding on Thomas, and everything Thomas, Matti is completely even more in love with Thomas. We finally, finally, finally bought a Thomas DVD for him which has been watched everyday. Matti loves to dance to the music and he dances with his elbows extended to his side and fists on his chest while moving to the side. He saw them doing this on Dancing With the Stars and since been dancing like that. As I was cleaning up the kitchen, he was saying, "Go Thomas, Go Percy, Go Thomas, Go Percy...Go BOOOYY!" Hahaha...
Needless to say, I have a lot of reasons to smile. Not to mention the wonderful bbBean who is constantly on the move. Although uncomfortable at times, I can't complain because I know he's alright.
4.28.2011
Baby News!
I had an ultrasound appointment last Friday & we were able to find out we are having another wonderful baby boy. I was slightly convinced there was a little princess in there because the way my belly looks. It's completely different from when I was pregnant with Matti. With him, it was more pronounced & rounded. This one, my belly seems wider and flatter--I don't know how else to explain it. Add on the what seems to be the list of things that I didn't experience with Matti, I assumed trouble = girl. When we saw his goodies, I looked at Jason and he seemed somewhat surprised as well. We're happy with our baby boy though! We've always said we wanted two boys first and two girls so that they boys could watch over their sisters. Matti came to the appointment with us and was able to see his baby brother. We decided to tell our families on Easter since we had a huge Easter celebration at my parents' house. We baked a cake and I dyed the batter blue so that when we cut into the cake, the blue showed. I've read the new things is to have 'Gender Cake Parties' and that just seems a little too much. I figured we're already in one place, let's just add a little more something to it.
Easter was just a big party. We had praise & worship, good food, a huge egg hunt for the 30+ kids there (which ended in like 10 seconds!), kite flying (?), bubbles, Frisbee, lots of soccer for Matti, more eggs getting dyed, & more! It was such a beautiful day despite the weather forecast being thunderstorms. We ended the night with playing Dance Central on Kinect. Well, I just watched, but it was a good time. Until next time :)
Easter was just a big party. We had praise & worship, good food, a huge egg hunt for the 30+ kids there (which ended in like 10 seconds!), kite flying (?), bubbles, Frisbee, lots of soccer for Matti, more eggs getting dyed, & more! It was such a beautiful day despite the weather forecast being thunderstorms. We ended the night with playing Dance Central on Kinect. Well, I just watched, but it was a good time. Until next time :)
4.20.2011
Dinner Dilemma
We've been having what I call "Dinner Dilemma" for a week or so now. Since I work until 6pm every night, it's really hard for us to have dinner at a decent time. Our average dinner time was 8pm every night, and I just feel that it's so late since Matti has to go to bed soon & Jason goes to bed early. He likes to sleep. I then feel like I've spent no time with them and it makes me feel like I'm in a slump. I do my best to try to think ahead of time what we'll have for dinner, but honestly, I'm a bad preggo & I don't really have cravings for much of anything. Between 4:30-5:00, I'll call Jason for dinner ideas and just like me, he doesn't have any cravings. By the time it's time for me to leave work, I just want to pick up something (usually Chinese) for dinner so I don't have to worry about cooking. It gets pretty boring after a while.
The other day, I wanted to find "new" recipes for dinner. I somehow ran into one of my old recipes (Taco Soup) and told Jason we had to have it sometime this week. He returned back with, "I've been wanting your chili for a while though.." So, off I went looking for my recipe. Well, I think that most of them are at my parents' house on their computer =/ So, I had to search all my previous blogs, forums, etc for any place that I might have posted them. I found some of them and I was excited to have found some of our favorites again. I also ran into a few of my crock pot recipes and decided that I was going to use it yesterday. How perfect! I can start it before I leave for work (varies between 11am-1pm) and we can have dinner right at a decent time! We've been going on walks before dinner, so it would be around 7pm. I'm okay with that! So, I've busted my crock pot out and will be using it a lot more often now. Dinner Dilemma solved!
*Although dinner was ready by the time I got home, I got a call from my dad asking us to come over to we can have Seder Meal since it was Passover. So, after a few test tastes (boy was it good), we are having it for lunch instead. I'm really excited for lunch today, haha. *
The other day, I wanted to find "new" recipes for dinner. I somehow ran into one of my old recipes (Taco Soup) and told Jason we had to have it sometime this week. He returned back with, "I've been wanting your chili for a while though.." So, off I went looking for my recipe. Well, I think that most of them are at my parents' house on their computer =/ So, I had to search all my previous blogs, forums, etc for any place that I might have posted them. I found some of them and I was excited to have found some of our favorites again. I also ran into a few of my crock pot recipes and decided that I was going to use it yesterday. How perfect! I can start it before I leave for work (varies between 11am-1pm) and we can have dinner right at a decent time! We've been going on walks before dinner, so it would be around 7pm. I'm okay with that! So, I've busted my crock pot out and will be using it a lot more often now. Dinner Dilemma solved!
*Although dinner was ready by the time I got home, I got a call from my dad asking us to come over to we can have Seder Meal since it was Passover. So, after a few test tastes (boy was it good), we are having it for lunch instead. I'm really excited for lunch today, haha. *
4.12.2011
Woohoo!
My BB Cream finally arrived today. I didn't realize when I ordered it that it was coming from Korea! I was getting anxious about how long it was taking, but I'm excited to finally have it. I did a lot of research trying to figure out which one to buy since it was my first BB purchase. I ended up with this: http://www.amazon.com/Missha-Perfect-Cover-Cream-Natural/dp/B002OPZEJQ I found BB creams through a friend who constantly raves about it and when I saw her video about it, I was sold.
Two :) Matti called me yesterday while I was at work yelling, "Mommy! I went poo poo in the toilet! THEN I FLUSH IT! i FLUSSSHHH it!!" I mean he was so excited, haha. He hasn't gone one the toilet for me, and I think he is responding better to Jason. It's okay though, at least he is starting to respond to someone. He does know when he has a dirty diaper, he just doesn't get the chance to tell us before it happens. It's easier to catch him before a #2 than a #1. I am hoping this is the start of our adventures in potty training. He's such a big boy in every aspect so I know he can do it :)
Two :) Matti called me yesterday while I was at work yelling, "Mommy! I went poo poo in the toilet! THEN I FLUSH IT! i FLUSSSHHH it!!" I mean he was so excited, haha. He hasn't gone one the toilet for me, and I think he is responding better to Jason. It's okay though, at least he is starting to respond to someone. He does know when he has a dirty diaper, he just doesn't get the chance to tell us before it happens. It's easier to catch him before a #2 than a #1. I am hoping this is the start of our adventures in potty training. He's such a big boy in every aspect so I know he can do it :)
3.17.2011
Things we teach.
As parents, we are our child's first teacher. Of course, we teach them their manners, ABCs, numbers, colors, etc. & when they do learn these things, we get so much joy out of it. I know I do. I get really excited and I usually ask him, "Wait, what did you just say!? Say it again!" Well, last night was one of those moments. For those that don't know, Jason & I fall in the "religious" category. Not necessarily a bad thing to us. I mean Matthias is from the Bible. He was the 13th disciple who replace Judas after he (Judas) betrayed Jesus. We've taken him to Mass since he was born and now, he knows we go to church to see Jesus. He knows to pray and he knows how to act while at Mass. We constantly get comments on how well behaved he is & didn't even know that he was there during Mass. He knows before we eat, we pray. He does the sign of the cross. Way before Matti was even in my belly, we knew that we would raise our children with God in their life. Not to say we are perfect, because no one is. Before Lent started, we looked at our life and saw what we needed to change. & saw parts in our life that we knew should be at a better state than it was. Prayer. We both knew it was a necessity and we were badly lacking in that department. Since Lent, we've had family prayer time (which is something I grew up with) and we read a devotional. We almost forgot last night (or I did). Jason was putting Matti to bed and I was laying in bed watching TV. In comes Jason&Matti telling me to turn the TV off. "We're gonna pray," says Jason. We started praying and we were starting off so that Matti could say something if he wanted. We started off with the Thanksgiving. (We try to pray using ACTS. A-acclamation C-contrition T-thanksgiving and S-supplication). In the middle of thanking Him for our day, Matti started chiming in....It went a little like this.
"Thank youu.....mommy...daddy..LOLA...lolo..uncle Ed..Bicycle (he rode his around that day)...miss susan (daycare)..thank you DJ (his friend at daycare)...uh....COOKIES! cars...toys...dinosauuur! *at this point I said something about Jason & the Air Force* ...yea thank you mommy & daddy drivingggg....aand airplanes. Ok I done. Amen! *sign of the cross*
Jason & I looked at each other and couldn't help but laugh. It was the funniest and cutest thing. We weren't close to finishing the prayer, but it's okay if we just thank Him for our day. And in a way, Matti led the prayer. We praised him so much for participating in our prayer time and loved him up so much. That moment. Is one I will remember and it's the moment when we kinda looked at each other and said, "We're doing it. We're doing a good job."
"Thank youu.....mommy...daddy..LOLA...lolo..uncle Ed..Bicycle (he rode his around that day)...miss susan (daycare)..thank you DJ (his friend at daycare)...uh....COOKIES! cars...toys...dinosauuur! *at this point I said something about Jason & the Air Force* ...yea thank you mommy & daddy drivingggg....aand airplanes. Ok I done. Amen! *sign of the cross*
Jason & I looked at each other and couldn't help but laugh. It was the funniest and cutest thing. We weren't close to finishing the prayer, but it's okay if we just thank Him for our day. And in a way, Matti led the prayer. We praised him so much for participating in our prayer time and loved him up so much. That moment. Is one I will remember and it's the moment when we kinda looked at each other and said, "We're doing it. We're doing a good job."
3.16.2011
He's a keeper.
Today marks another special day for us. Today, Jason will be enlisting again, but this time, he'll be going reservist. This is something he's always considered since getting out September 2009, and he's finally doing it. Sure, we'll have days&nights apart again, but I'm confident we will get through it. It will definitely be interesting since he went from Navy & this time around, he will be Air Force.
3.10.2011
Day 2.
Lent started yesterday! This is one of my favorite times of the year...well except for Christmas, but I love Lent just the same.
I ended up going to Mass alone yesterday before work, but I just wanted to quickly write this down before I forget. I posted it on FB, but I know that'll soon get lost.
Happy Lenten Season!
I ended up going to Mass alone yesterday before work, but I just wanted to quickly write this down before I forget. I posted it on FB, but I know that'll soon get lost.
Happy Lenten Season!
3.03.2011
2.28.2011
981.
That's how many days it has been since Matti came into our lives. I think as a parent, you catch yourself just watching your child in amazement at how much they have grown. How much they have learned. How that no matter what they do, you can never see yourself loving them any less. In the past weeks or so, I've been catching myself in those moments. Just watching him in everything that he does and I wonder, "When did he get to be such a big boy?" He never ceases to amaze me. Everything he does, I'm proud of. I'm really excited for him because I know he will be the most amazing big brother. Everything he does is so natural to me, and for the past few weeks, we've been seeing people we haven't seen in a while. & they have all made comments about how he's grown, how he talks A LOT, speaks in sentences, has a great appetite, how he has the best demeanor, etc. I see him everyday so it's nothing new to me. I'm used to it, but when people are constantly telling me this, I become more aware of it. And I catch myself just watching him. Right now, he is "writing" which is one of his new favorite things to do. He narrates most of his day. "Mommy, I'm go get my piwow. Mommy, I go lay down and watch TV." Granted, he has his moments (right now) when he is screaming because he doesn't agree with what I did (take the gum he found in my purse away), but for the most part he's a good kid. His tantrum is over now and is laughing and asking me to scroll the screen down haha. We moved him from his toddler bed (his crib converted to one) and bought him a brand new bed. He loves his new bed and feels like such a big boy in it. & that he should because he's a big boy now whether we like it or not.
2.14.2011
Date Night.
Happy Valentine's Day!
Jason & I went out to dinner on Saturday. I worked from 7-1pm & soon after we went up the road to see our friend/Matti's godmother. We had a few things we wanted to do as well. Babies R Us is doing their Trade-In event & we were going to get another Britax seat for the new baby. We decided to wait a little bit for it and walked around the store to see if we were interested in anything. Matti kept busy with the toys that were there. We decided to get Matti a toddler bed so that we can get him used to that. His crib converted to a toddler bed, but once the new baby comes, we will need the crib. So, we might as well start the transition to the NEW bed now. They didn't have the one we wanted so they gave us our coupon and told us to go to Toys R Us. Matti was in love with all the toys while we looked to make sure it was what we wanted. After that, we decided to head to Chuck E Cheese! Matti's godmother & another friend were going to stay there with him while we went to dinner. Jason didn't want to miss Matti's first Chuck E Cheese experience so we stayed for a few minutes. He was having such a good time & what was even better is that he got to have his favorite---PIZZA! It was getting close to 7 so we decided to scoot out and head to dinner. At this point, I still had no clue where we were going. Jason reveals that if hadn't eaten chinese the night before, we were going to this little Japanese place. For some reason, I really want sushi so I told him I didn't mind. He said he had another place and we'd grab sushi later on this week. :) Finally, we get there & it was a steakhouse I'd been dying to go to! So, I was really excited, haha. We had to wait a little, but it was fine since they give you a bag of peanuts to munch on. It was also nice because we were able to just sit and talk. Finally, we got called up and sat down at our table. We already looked at the menu and were ready to order. Jason ordered a steak that we would split and I ordered steak kabobs for us to split as well. And a salad. The service was great and we got our food really fast, but as soon as I got my salad, something didn't agree with Baby Bean. My appetite left and I could only eat a little bit. I figured that I'd be okay once my dinner arrived. Nope. I couldn't handle the smell of my food and I found myself struggling to eat. I had to keep pushing my plate away. I felt so bad! We've been looking forward to date night & I was really looking forward to my steaks, haha. I told Jason to just eat while I tried to hold it together. We left about 10 minutes after we received our food. I kept apologizing to Jake, but he was really sweet about it. I told him that we are not to go on any dates until I have passed the first trimester. We got in the car and he plopped a bag in my lap. I was laying back and didn't realized it was a gift for me. We usually don't get each other gifts for Valentine's or any other holiday so I told him I didn't get a chance to get him anything. I wanted to, but I just haven't found anything. He said it was fine. I started opening it & I finally realize what it is. A DSLR. Anyone that knows me knows that this is something I have been wanting for a very long time. I didn't expect to get it now. All I know is that I'm in love with it and I can't wait to learn how to use it to get the best pictures. I've been playing around with it since I got it. When we picked up Matti, I took a few shots. And also at a bridal shower I was at yesterday. Jason is too good to me :) Matti seemed to have a great time and was pretty exhausted when we got there. He spent most of his tokens on a train game...go figure! We can't wait to take him back.
Jason & I went out to dinner on Saturday. I worked from 7-1pm & soon after we went up the road to see our friend/Matti's godmother. We had a few things we wanted to do as well. Babies R Us is doing their Trade-In event & we were going to get another Britax seat for the new baby. We decided to wait a little bit for it and walked around the store to see if we were interested in anything. Matti kept busy with the toys that were there. We decided to get Matti a toddler bed so that we can get him used to that. His crib converted to a toddler bed, but once the new baby comes, we will need the crib. So, we might as well start the transition to the NEW bed now. They didn't have the one we wanted so they gave us our coupon and told us to go to Toys R Us. Matti was in love with all the toys while we looked to make sure it was what we wanted. After that, we decided to head to Chuck E Cheese! Matti's godmother & another friend were going to stay there with him while we went to dinner. Jason didn't want to miss Matti's first Chuck E Cheese experience so we stayed for a few minutes. He was having such a good time & what was even better is that he got to have his favorite---PIZZA! It was getting close to 7 so we decided to scoot out and head to dinner. At this point, I still had no clue where we were going. Jason reveals that if hadn't eaten chinese the night before, we were going to this little Japanese place. For some reason, I really want sushi so I told him I didn't mind. He said he had another place and we'd grab sushi later on this week. :) Finally, we get there & it was a steakhouse I'd been dying to go to! So, I was really excited, haha. We had to wait a little, but it was fine since they give you a bag of peanuts to munch on. It was also nice because we were able to just sit and talk. Finally, we got called up and sat down at our table. We already looked at the menu and were ready to order. Jason ordered a steak that we would split and I ordered steak kabobs for us to split as well. And a salad. The service was great and we got our food really fast, but as soon as I got my salad, something didn't agree with Baby Bean. My appetite left and I could only eat a little bit. I figured that I'd be okay once my dinner arrived. Nope. I couldn't handle the smell of my food and I found myself struggling to eat. I had to keep pushing my plate away. I felt so bad! We've been looking forward to date night & I was really looking forward to my steaks, haha. I told Jason to just eat while I tried to hold it together. We left about 10 minutes after we received our food. I kept apologizing to Jake, but he was really sweet about it. I told him that we are not to go on any dates until I have passed the first trimester. We got in the car and he plopped a bag in my lap. I was laying back and didn't realized it was a gift for me. We usually don't get each other gifts for Valentine's or any other holiday so I told him I didn't get a chance to get him anything. I wanted to, but I just haven't found anything. He said it was fine. I started opening it & I finally realize what it is. A DSLR. Anyone that knows me knows that this is something I have been wanting for a very long time. I didn't expect to get it now. All I know is that I'm in love with it and I can't wait to learn how to use it to get the best pictures. I've been playing around with it since I got it. When we picked up Matti, I took a few shots. And also at a bridal shower I was at yesterday. Jason is too good to me :) Matti seemed to have a great time and was pretty exhausted when we got there. He spent most of his tokens on a train game...go figure! We can't wait to take him back.
2.10.2011
One Day
Jason bought Matti a Wipe Off ABC Book a few months ago. I wasn't quite sure how many would like it since he has little interest in coloring for more than a scribble or two. He doesn't really like crayons. He prefers pens and will doodle during Mass, but for the most part, he'd rather be running around. The other day, I was making dinner & Jason was hanging out with MJ & when I looked, they were using the book. I was amazed that Jason was able to get him to sit still & interested enough to do a few letters. Well, he loves it! We both thought he was done & proceeded to do other things. When I looked down, Matti did a decent job with the letters. All you need to do is trace it, and he does a pretty good job! I'm so proud of him.
Today he asked again to "draw" so I took the opportunity. After we finished the alphabet, he wanted to do more. So I wrote his name in the same dashed manner. & he loved that he was writing his name! See how proud he is?!
So yea. All this and other things are making me want to stay at home with him more & more. I love my job, I love my co-workers, but I love these moments with Matti. This is ME teaching HIM. One day, I hope to be back home with him & future baby Bean.
2.03.2011
Happy Birthday, Da!
Today is my Dad's Birthday..if you didn't notice the title. My family celebrated last night since today my parents have Adoration. We ended up going to Teariffic Cafe which was lovely. I always forget about this restaurant and I'm glad my dad chose it. They have the usual Chinese dishes, but also different soups & even Korean BBQ (&Kimchee!). I had trouble picking what I wanted because I wanted everything. I stuck with House Special Fried Rice that I ate only half of. It was delish! My mom got one of their soups & it looked really good. Next time, I want to try it. We also went overboard with ordering appetizers, but I think my favorite was the Fish Balls. They have something similar in the Philippines and it tasted pretty close to it.
Tonight, we are going to hang out at my parents' house until they get home from Adoration. I know that today is the Feast of St. Blaise. My dad's second first name (?) is Blas named after him. So, I'm trying to figure out if they are doing the throat blessings today at church. If they are, we might head over there after I get off work. & then go to my parents' house. We have my dad's gift and we're excited to give it to him :)
The other night, I was driving home from work and I was just thinking about my parents. I was thinking about how far they'd come since we moved to the United States. I was wondering in my mind if they thought they would be where they are in their life now. If they'd have the things they have (although I know my parents are the least materialistic people I know). & it just made me really happy & proud of them. It gives me hope that eventually things will fall into place. I know everything will never be okay, but we can be at that point when we can look back & say, "Look how far we've come." They are both hard workers but not just in the workplace. I know they do their best there. I used to work with my mom & she's very much a perfectionist. & my dad is pretty important at his job. But that's not what I think of at first when I think of them. I think of their hard work for the Lord & how much they love Him. & 99% of what they do is FOR HIM. Every decision they make, they pray about it. They live their life for Him. My parents are the area leaders for our church community, Families in Christ Jesus. My dad has held that "spot" for as long as we've lived here. Aside from working, paying bills, making dinner, and doing everyday things, they have that service. & not once have I heard them complain about it or say how tired they are or how they need a break. I look at them and hope that some day I can have half of the dedication they have to the community. & to TRULY live for Him. I know I'm not at that point yet, but I hope that one day I will be.
Tonight, we are going to hang out at my parents' house until they get home from Adoration. I know that today is the Feast of St. Blaise. My dad's second first name (?) is Blas named after him. So, I'm trying to figure out if they are doing the throat blessings today at church. If they are, we might head over there after I get off work. & then go to my parents' house. We have my dad's gift and we're excited to give it to him :)
The other night, I was driving home from work and I was just thinking about my parents. I was thinking about how far they'd come since we moved to the United States. I was wondering in my mind if they thought they would be where they are in their life now. If they'd have the things they have (although I know my parents are the least materialistic people I know). & it just made me really happy & proud of them. It gives me hope that eventually things will fall into place. I know everything will never be okay, but we can be at that point when we can look back & say, "Look how far we've come." They are both hard workers but not just in the workplace. I know they do their best there. I used to work with my mom & she's very much a perfectionist. & my dad is pretty important at his job. But that's not what I think of at first when I think of them. I think of their hard work for the Lord & how much they love Him. & 99% of what they do is FOR HIM. Every decision they make, they pray about it. They live their life for Him. My parents are the area leaders for our church community, Families in Christ Jesus. My dad has held that "spot" for as long as we've lived here. Aside from working, paying bills, making dinner, and doing everyday things, they have that service. & not once have I heard them complain about it or say how tired they are or how they need a break. I look at them and hope that some day I can have half of the dedication they have to the community. & to TRULY live for Him. I know I'm not at that point yet, but I hope that one day I will be.
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